i haven't drawn in ages and i don't see it changing :') it seems like. insurmountable. to improve - the amt of studying and sketching and practice i'd have to do makes me miserable to think about lol

and then i hop on fa and see all this amazing art and it just discourages me more because even if i did practice i wouldn't have an interesting style :')

it's just hard... i don't have the time or energy to get my art to the point i want it to be, so mise well just stop.

also i still can't find a job and my best friend of several years stopped talking to me completely without notice :') like i've been happy but l m a o everything really does fucking suck