My words and thoughts may not comply with yours, no offense.
Now, this one is quite personal. This month i've learned how miserable i am. No, even pathetic. You see, i've asking myself from time to time - "Am i a good person?". Pretty dumb question, eh? But, i've never seen an answer for it - everyone around me saying/proving different things. The closest friends say that i'm fine, but after speaking with other people, sometimes i feel like i'm not. I can't tell this for myself. I guess, the closest "correct" answer to this question is - "I am what i am".
The thing is, how can we be sure for ourselves? What do you think about yourself? What do you feel? How often you ask yourself? And how do you deal with the thought, that you can easily find yourself to be puny, pathetic two-faced scum? I can't find the answer. I mean, ok, good - I am what i am, and i couldn've been anyone else. But what about people around me? What if i am an asshole? It doesn't mean, that people around me (especially thosei care about) have to deal with an asshole like me, doesn't it? Definitely not. But what about other assholes? Those, who deserve to be fucked over? What should i do if i care? What to do if i am a human? I'm not willing to become heartless picece of shit, that doesn't cares about anyone, but himself, thats sucks bricks!
That's being said. Perhaps, i'm just tired. The previous month was full of "suprises". Pleasent and not. I do belive, i'm not alone, that i am not the only one who asking himself the same question. But, how do you people dealing with it?