i hate living here, i hate working these ridiculous hrs, i hate not having a car/still learning how to drive and having to spend money on lyfts. i hate not being qble to sleep. i'm excited for school i guess but then i'll have even more shit to do on top of working and i'm just fuckng running out of motivation. i cant even pay for therapy, even with my copay it's like $50 which i'm now spending on fucking lyft because my dad can't drive me to/from work and i can't take the bus. i have like no motivation or time to draw and i hate my art. i like don't care about being alive anymore and even though i'm on medication that can't be fixed cause i know that this never fucking ends