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Summer...
7 years ago
Oh, hello!
:s
Here it is.
I've observed my Summer state and should be prepared for the darkness. I've made my kohai aware of how I tend to be...not looking forward to it.
I'd say "Maybe this summer will be different?" But I don't see how it would be any more different than any other... Nothing will change that I know of. There's a reason I get the way I do, and the causes of that reason most likely have not changed... I'll just try to deal with it the best I can.
I hate the way I act. It's worse than watching anime... pretty much cost me a friend last summer, but I don't need her in my life anyway. Last time I blew up at someone like that I also needed her out of my life. God is watching out for me~ I needed both of those connections severed completely, and they were. But I still don't like how it feels to upset someone, and how upset I feel during the whole season.
I can't enjoy it. And then I go right back to school, which will only be a little better.
I have August planned to be at least a little amazing, and I do hope it goes the way it's supposed to, or I'll die a thousand deaths x-x
As usual won't have money, house won't be 100% stress free, can't interact with the furs in town, friends busy (I can only guess they would be, I don't see why that would suddenly change). Now I have friends in another state I can't even see, unless August goes well. That's really all I can look forward to. And the fact that if I don't immediately spend all my money on cool Japanese stuff I'll be able to slowly run out of it by buying myself treats I also wouldn't be able to get otherwise~ But I'll be unmedicated, so who knows how it'll turn out.
Here it is.
I've observed my Summer state and should be prepared for the darkness. I've made my kohai aware of how I tend to be...not looking forward to it.
I'd say "Maybe this summer will be different?" But I don't see how it would be any more different than any other... Nothing will change that I know of. There's a reason I get the way I do, and the causes of that reason most likely have not changed... I'll just try to deal with it the best I can.
I hate the way I act. It's worse than watching anime... pretty much cost me a friend last summer, but I don't need her in my life anyway. Last time I blew up at someone like that I also needed her out of my life. God is watching out for me~ I needed both of those connections severed completely, and they were. But I still don't like how it feels to upset someone, and how upset I feel during the whole season.
I can't enjoy it. And then I go right back to school, which will only be a little better.
I have August planned to be at least a little amazing, and I do hope it goes the way it's supposed to, or I'll die a thousand deaths x-x
As usual won't have money, house won't be 100% stress free, can't interact with the furs in town, friends busy (I can only guess they would be, I don't see why that would suddenly change). Now I have friends in another state I can't even see, unless August goes well. That's really all I can look forward to. And the fact that if I don't immediately spend all my money on cool Japanese stuff I'll be able to slowly run out of it by buying myself treats I also wouldn't be able to get otherwise~ But I'll be unmedicated, so who knows how it'll turn out.
