holy cow it's been four years since I've posted in this. Lotta stuffs happened. But I guess the most important thing is that I've been going to therapy. Media makes light of these things, but I will never underestimate it agian. You find the right doctor and everything clicks for you. Right now my doctor's helping me work out a way to get my top surgery going. I'm also looking into getting a service dog and they're helping with that too!