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John Bain, aka Totalbiscuit, has passed away.
7 years ago
Never met the guy. Always wanted to. Only properly started watching his channel a couple of years ago and wished I'd watched it sooner. Yet I feel such a profound sense of loss now that he's gone.
He's been instrumental in shaping how I think about games as a medium. Showing me what it's like to properly critique a game, not just loudly exclaim "THIS GAME IS TRASH" and move on. He could pick apart a game and not only work out what felt bad about the experience but also why it felt bad and what the developers might have been thinking when implimenting it.
I'm just writing this to get my feelings out, I guess. I'd been waiting for the news of this to happen for a while since his health deteriorated a lot in recent weeks, but it seemed like he was stubbornly fighting it, even when chemo was no longer working.
I'm just sat here crying due to the death of a man I'd never met. I feel like a complete mess. I really didn't need more loss in my life right now, but here it is.
I dunno, I'm just rambling here...wondering why I'm continuing to type with nothing to say.
I guess I'll just end with...rest in peace, John Bain. I hope I get to meet you on the other side and explain to you why your opinion of Alpha Protocol is completely wrong one day.
He's been instrumental in shaping how I think about games as a medium. Showing me what it's like to properly critique a game, not just loudly exclaim "THIS GAME IS TRASH" and move on. He could pick apart a game and not only work out what felt bad about the experience but also why it felt bad and what the developers might have been thinking when implimenting it.
I'm just writing this to get my feelings out, I guess. I'd been waiting for the news of this to happen for a while since his health deteriorated a lot in recent weeks, but it seemed like he was stubbornly fighting it, even when chemo was no longer working.
I'm just sat here crying due to the death of a man I'd never met. I feel like a complete mess. I really didn't need more loss in my life right now, but here it is.
I dunno, I'm just rambling here...wondering why I'm continuing to type with nothing to say.
I guess I'll just end with...rest in peace, John Bain. I hope I get to meet you on the other side and explain to you why your opinion of Alpha Protocol is completely wrong one day.
Then I realised it *was* true...and after a few minutes of sadness I just broke.
Recently the chemo had stopped working for him. The cancer had gone from being stable to aggressively making a move. It had felt like time was near for the last few weeks since his tweets were starting to become quite jumbled. But he was still upbeat and getting treatment. This news came as a bolt out of the blue for anyone who hadn't seen him in person, I imagine.
I just feel... numb right now.
his content has been a huge part of my life since... 2009 or so.
RIP TB... thanks for all the entertainment o7
It hurts to hear that he died, and so young too.
Also, have you seen the Twitter mobs crowing about how happy they are he's died because of his involvement in GamerGate? They're enough to make you lose faith in humanity entirely...
The fact others appropriated it and made it about a bunch of other things was irrelevent to him. But since #GG stood for a bunch of things and TB was in favour of one part of it, suddenly he was in favour of ALL OF IT. The gamergate crap is the reason he and Laura Kate Dale hadn't talked for months because he felt his influence might affect her new job by association. And that's freakin sad that they had to break off a friendship because those wankers might make her new job harder for her than it already was.
Whenever anyone dies you'll always get the mob of tryhard, edgelord, contrarian wankers who have to point out how much they think the opposite of what they believe they're supposed to.