hey everyone,
how're y'all?

so, i really hate to make a journal like this, but
i've had a very few stressful days that honestly left me feeling suicidal and other gross things.. ):>

i'm gonna try to make this short,
but my cat got out of our home yesterday through the front door (idk how the door got open in the first place, but it happened)
and as soon as everyone in the house noticed this,
we all went out and combed through a huge chunk of the neighborhood looking for him
and we talked to a lot of people, too
asking if they had seen him and to contact us if they did

well, we found him today, thanks to a couple of people who i traded contact info with yesterday

turns out my cat was at a neighbors backyard, two houses down from me

i contacted the person who lived at said house and got my cat back

unfortunately,
he was exceptionally dinged up..
he was bit on his left shoulder (probably by a stray cat)
and he had scratches all over him,
but thankfully this most recent friday, we got him his rabies shots and other essential shots done
regardless of this, tho, i managed to get him into a vet today asap and he was given an antibiotic shot and some pain meds to take home
(i had bathed him prior to taking him to the vet, since he is a sphynx cat, was dirty, and i wanted to clean his cuts..)


SO..
now we're all back home and he's resting
i'm pretty sure they sedated him a bit to calm him down,
because he's super pooped out for sure u__u;;

i need a few days to wind down because i just felt so ruined throughout most of this whole ordeal,
thinking that we may never see him again and i'm just so happy that he's back with us..
thanks to the caring community that we live in,
we found him right away and i just feel extremely thankful, grateful, etc


aside from this,
my birthday is coming up fast (june 21st)
so i'm also gonna be a bit busy around that time, too


i feel so bad about this regardless, tho
i know people are waiting for me to complete commissions and i'm probably going to try to work on some things even though i want to take a moment to breathe
i hope this is all understandable and once i return,
i plan on working my butt off because aside from all of this,
my mental health has been relatively okay-ish recently (i want to take advantage of this while i'm having a manic episode, essentially LMAO...)


i said i was gonna try to make this short,
but oh well lmfao

the mini hiatus could last up to a week to a week and a half
it might be cut short, we'll see

thank you for reading,
i hope y'all are doing okay <3

and also,
if this journal is all jumbly and a mess,
please bear with me njsdngfdsl