You silly beastie, the negative doesn't outweigh the positive, or people wouldn't love you so much!

Gah! x3 I meant to say it the other way around! Thanks for catching that!

I was a little confused and had to re-read it a few times, you seemed pretty cheerful that people had more bad than good to say about you D:

That all sounds about right, but as Twile said, there's plenty of unstated (in this journal, at least) positive stuff that contributes to people really wanting to be around you. The fact that the main "negative" comment given is that people want to know more about you is about as positive as criticism gets. <3

Anyway, let me have it!

Admittedly, I was hoping just to give a brief summary of what everyone had said in the last journal. If I added all the positive stuff and negative stuff, it probably would've been a lot longer than it is right now. XD Anyway! ...

I don't know Ty, the character, yet. I have nothing to glean from save for what Kaoru has told me, which isn't enough for me to form any conclusions about him. For this reason, I think I'll just skip talking about him for now and focus more on Ty, the player behind the character. :3

Admittedly, my thoughts and opinions of you, especially ones that I don't share for anyone else, are kinda limited despite how frequently we've chatted over the past couple of months. In fact, I spent all of yesterday trying to figure out what exactly I think about you and I haven't come up with much. It really surprises me to a certain degree because I imagined being able to say a lot of stuff about you, considering how good of a friend I consider you. This just proves to me that I do need to get to know you better because I clearly don't know you well enough if I haven't formed any significant opinions about you.

With all of that said, there are some things I've been able to glean from you. In particular, I think you have an intense personality rich with emotion, which is very appealing to me. As I've mentioned to you before, I like people who aren't afraid to show some emotion because it reminds me that I'm dealing with a real person on the other end of my computer. Plus, it's a relief to know I'm not the only one that can get bat-shit crazy emotional sometimes.

As a friend, I share the same feelings that you mentioned in my previous journal. I think you were very supportive and understanding when I was dealing with problems a couple months. I just hope that you feel that I'm as supportive and caring when you come to me with your problems. :3

Anyway, it's very clear to me now that I still need to get to know you better. I knew this before I did this journal, but struggling to respond to you with some meaningful thoughts and opinions really underlined it. x3

I genuinely appreciate your response for multiple reasons, but most importantly because of its honesty. When I wrote "let me have it," I wasn't exactly sure what sorts of things you would come out with, especially considering our limited interactions with each other (though I had certainly hoped they would be positive!). Of course, I hadn't expected you to spin about this for as long as you did, but as you mentioned that, it kind of reminds me of the times when I have to write something sentimental in a birthday card for a family member. Oftentimes I'm forced to stick to something pretty bland and generic because while my feelings for them are strong, we have had so little interaction over the last year that it's hard to write anything uniquely personal. It's not a particularly satisfying feeling to go to someone who has had an integral role in your childhood and hand them something like that, but going away to college and growing up apart from family and giving friends a more important part in your development naturally does that, or at least it did in my case. However, I hold out much more hope and excitement about our relationship because while those between some of my family members and I is waning (hopefully and probably not permanently though), ours is just budding. We have spoken somewhat frequently for the past couple of months, but most of those interactions were relatively brief and usually just a "Hey, how you doin'?" sort of conversation; nothing of great significance was said or expressed except for a genuine desire to keep in touch and stay connected. Thus, our feelings for each other couldn't be anything more developed than generalized and unrefined pleasure to be in each others' company, realistically speaking. This is a wonderful starting point. :3

I look forward to getting to know you better over the coming months (and more). It will be an experience for both of us to become more open each other, but I'm sure that it will be a rewarding one. <3

~Ty

That perfectly describes how I felt when writing my thoughts about you. My feelings for you are, indeed, strong, but we just haven't had enough meaningful interaction yet, I think, for me to say much about you. It really wasn't a satisfying feeling, especially considering how confident I was going into this that I'd be able to say a lot of stuff for you. x3

Anyway, I really do hope we move forward with our budding relationship. I want to be able to say more meaningful stuff about you at some point. :3

~Retna

^^; heh normally I find severing myself from my player the easiest step... normally it's get in the head of him...

[Much like the blind Fox Anthro wizard called Salohcin would match my OOCish personality much more, however he would still sleep with a female... where as the wolf ya know so well avoids relationships beyond just being a friend, he finds intimacy with another being only a hindrance.]

>_O yeah good thing I'm not like my player... --; I might be stuck inside a cave like Twile all day long doing them geek like things.

Yeah, I'm the exact opposite of you in that case. I've actually tried severing Retna from myself a couple times with little success. x3 Getting into his head, on the other hand, is very easy for me. n.n ...

I think I'll start with AEthian, the character. :3 Retna, unfortunately, doesn't share the same feelings for AEthian that AEthian has for him. He actually finds AEthian particularly amusing and fun to tease and antagonize. I, the player, on the other hand, find him as a deceptively complex character. I particularly like his cold, uncaring personality. If I were to ever delve into more deeper and more meaningful RPing again, I'd certainly be interested in interacting with AEthian as a more serious character to see what develops between them. In the meantime, however, I think I'll just continue being a nuisance to you as Retna. :P

Unfortunately, I don't have anything to say about the OOC AEthian! :< You haven't introduced him to me yet! Where can I find him and how can I meet him? D:

>o> oooh the human, well you can meet him, he is usually hovering around... the crazy bracket speaker and what not, he's apparently a hoot among them RL people. Though can be rather a sociopath at times.

I'd be delighted to hear your opinion. Here is fine, unless you feel that there're things to be said that'd be better said in notes, in which case notes it is.

Here is fine. :3

Just like my response to Ty, I'm not gonna waste too much time trying to say things about Eid, the character. Retna and Eid haven't had enough, if any, noteworthy interactions for me to form a meaningful opinion about him. :3 I'm just gonna focus on you.

You are very level-headed, moreso than most people, I think. It's one of your defining traits. It's why I told Kaoru a couple months ago that if I were to ever consider creating a forum or chatroom, whether it be vore-themed or not, you'd be my first, if not only, choice to help me moderate the forum/chatroom. I trust your judgement moreso than I do with anyone else and I firmly believe that you'd make sound decisions if issues were to arise in the forum or chatroom. As awkward as this may sound, it's also why I told another friend (who shall remain anonymous unless he wishes to tell you himself) that if I were to ever have any troublesome and questionable thoughts again, you'd be the first online contact that I'd try to go to if I couldn't reach anyone more close by (e.g. my family, certain local friends, etc.) to talk me through my problems. I'm sure that might be a little distressing to hear, but I do trust you, Eid, maybe moreso than I should, and I want to put any worries or concerns you may have about me leaving you in the dark when something serious is troubling me.

Although I do appreciate and admire your 'level-headed'-ness, there are times that I wish you were a little more excitable. I don't believe I've observed a wide range of emotions from you, and those that I have felt distinctly tend to be very dull and subdued. In addition to this, I've often had difficulties discerning how you feel and what you're thinking without prying for information. I don't know if this is just your nature, but it's somewhat upsetting to me that I rarely feel anything from you. I know you're a caring person. You appear to be happy most of the time. I think I've seen you annoyed or upset a couple times about little things. ... But, I've never seen any pronounced emotions or feelings from you, if that makes any sense. x.x Don't get me wrong, though. I've enjoy all the intellectual conversations we've had in the past and all the opportunities you've given me to learn about you, but I don't feel we've really connected the same way as me and other folks have connected. The caring friendship is there, but I don't feel we've broken down that barrier separating us from a more closer friendship ('course, there's other sorts of impeding barriers hindering the process, i.e. geographical ones x3). You might not even want that for all I know, but that's what I'd like. :3 If it's not, I suppose I could be satisfied with the friendship we have. But this is the reason why I felt uncomfortable opening up to you up until AC. In a way, I'm somewhat intimidated by the fact that you're so level-headed, if that makes any sense. :P

Overall, you're a good guy and a caring friend. Aside from my minor complaint (if you can even consider it a complaint :P), I don't think there's anything bad I can honestly say about you. n.n

That's a really thorough and thoughtful response! I really appreciate your putting it together; if you're anything like me in the way you write things like this, you were probably at it quite awhile! :3 Thank you.

In response to what you said, I'm touched that you find me to be so trustworthy and respectable a person. There's nothing distressing about your statement that you would look to me to confide in were you to find yourself with troubling thoughts; were you ever in a situation in which you felt I might be able to help you, it's more a relief than a cause for concern that you would feel comfortable coming to me.

At the same time, your charge of emotionlessness is right on the mark! What may come off as guardedness really is more often a lack of feeling than a concealment of it, and while I could stand to work on opening up, I could just as much work on actually having something to open up, if this makes sense. The reasons for that are, I suppose, not really journal-reply material, but you shouldn't ever worry about 'prying' or asking unwelcome questions; if a question or line of conversation is unwelcome, I can just tell you so without taking offense. I agree with you that a closer friendship would be a desirable thing, however we find we can pursue it! My lack of emotional response is a character fault of mine, so for the sake of my self-improvement don't be shy about pointing it out if need be. ;P

...And AC totally was a turning point, as far as being able to connect with you personally to the (limited but improved!) extent that we have since then is concerned. x3 It's not that there's something inherently magical about a face-to-face meeting, but rather, before then I think that I harbored some misconceptions about you. As much as I love the textual medium of communication, I tend to forget how easily it lends itself to misinterpretation in the lack of other clarifying contact. Whatever else may or may not have changed since then, I became orders of magnitude more comfortable with you.

Thank you again for putting this together. :3

I'm up for it. Take your time dude, I'm interested to see how you feel. Good or bad, be sure to be brutally honest if you need to. :D

Thanks for being patient! >.< I've been so busy getting ready to go back to school that I haven't really been able to work on these as much as I would've liked to. x3 But anyway...

I honestly don't see any distinction, at least in terms of personality, between yourself and your character. Both yourself and your character are extremely cheerful, if not also a little hyper and crazy at times. Admittedly, I do have leanings towards less crazy folks, but your hyperness and craziness are actually a pleasant thing. I actually don't mind it at all. n.n

I think I learned to be more open to new experiences and more accepting of people with different personalities from you. n.n As I mentioned before, I dont normally surround myself with hyper and crazy people. They tend to stress me out a bit! x3 I learned, however, that that's not the case with all crazy hyper folks from you. You're pleasant to be around. n.n As far as being open to new experiences, you're the one who introduced me to navel stuff. I never would have tried that sort of stuff out on my own, and after having done stuff with you, I actually found out that I sorta like it. The best part about it all was that you weren't forceful in trying this stuff out with me. n.n You allowed me to explore this stuff at my own pace, and I enjoyed it all the more that way. You've also been very accommodating and respectful to my boundaries. :3

In all, I don't really have anything bad to say about you either, actually, aside from not knowing you as well as would like to know you. :3 That's not necessarily a bad thing, though. I'm sure when we're both less busy with stuff, we'll get to chat and get to know each other better.

Heeeee! I'm tickled that you think all that of me. You hit upon a key point though, I try never to force anything on people if I can help it, especially on those who are iffy about things like navel vore. I'm also happy to hear you ended up liking it and getting into it as well, it gives me a warm feeling inside. Either that or it could be a cute hyena getting pulled into my button. :D

Anywhoo, someday we will definitely get time to talk and such, plus there's always FA notes. :3

Yes, there are FA notes. x3 I keep forgetting about this and if I remember correctly, they were actually more convenient for communicating with people when they're not around much on instant messengers! I'll have to send you a note sometime. :3

Ditto, I should probably send ya one myself. X3

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what do you think of me?