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Before i jump into things i want to take the time to personally thank all those people who helped me when i was stuck, locked outside of my house. I have contacted those beautiful souls. So i can honor my half of the deal, and gift back a little peice to say thank you.
It's not much but it will be made with love. Like all of the work I do.
Which brings me to my next topic. So I have slowly been climbing out of the personal hell I have been stuck in for years. The climb is slow and painful, often times feeling endless. But the freedom is worth it!
Recently as most of yall can tell, I'm actually completing all the things I owe others and to myself. If you know me well, sometimes that's near impossible. For one reason or another, not trying to excuse it. Just saying my life has been made of pure chaos for a while. And has staggered my artist life to a damn stand still.
Things have not been easy for me. And emotionally this year has been the hardest. So many painful good byes, lessons and losses.
But I am still here and I will fight with every tooth and nail that i have to change things. I refuse on all accounts to give up everything I worked so hard to bring to life. Even tho, i wanted to give up many times. I used many negstive and taboo coping mechanisms, and im not whole hearted happy with that. Not when I am now so close to being where I want to be. And doing it successfully, in the way I always wanted to. So i wanted more than anything to turn that around.
That being said i want to share with you some feelings i have on life and shit that happens.
Not everyone will love u, not everyone will be there for you, support you or even be genuine. Lots of people will lie straight to YOUR FACE, hate on you for no reason, some will do so while smiling at you while take advantage of you and then get upset when you don't roll over.
Don't ever give-in to that garbage. You are worth so much more. The talent you have in your heart. The tears you have cried. The blood you have in your body and the breath in your lungs all deserves all the happiness in the world. You deserve to be happy. Doesn't matter who betrayed you, who wasn't there for you and who doesn't understand you. None of that matters. What matters is that you keep on being the best and brightest of you. Keep going even when you want to just give up and give in.
Becuz I love you. Love should not be reserved only for intimate relationships. People are so crule, selfish and fickle. I have been hurt in ways that would breaks people.
And if I can love and give love to all the people( and things) that make me who I am. Genuinely after all the pain....
Then you deserved to be loved and hear that you are worth it too.
Too often it's never said. And too often we are forced to bear the burden of pain in silence. Hurting ourselves privately in our own personal hells. But you are strong and tears do not make you weak.
Giving in to those bastards that try to grind you down, that makes you weak. But friends make us strong!! We are friends, right?
So to all my friends and all the people who need to hear this, to you I say :
You are not alone. We are all in this together. You are worth the gift of life. You are special. You will always be worth it. So fight with all your heart, and never give in. We as friends will always be stronger together.
I mean that. I've been there, I'm still there but I won't leave my friends behind to rot in the pain.
Much love and good vibes to everyone, especially those that need it.
Have the best day you can.
-ee
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Reminder for a chance to win free arts!
The Goal Mark Free art Raffle!!!
When I hit these Goals. I will make a raffle for some gift art!!! It will be for EVERYONE that Followers/watch(es) those accounts. After goal(s) are hit; a New Goal will be placed up
Instagram>>500 (CURRENT COUNT 358)
FA>> 1,100 (CURRENT COUNT 1011)
SOCIAL MEDIAS
Instagram https://www.instagram.com/evilessence/
FaceBook art page http://www.facebook.com/EvilessenceDarkstar
Youtube (for events i attend, not really v-blog) evilessencedarkstar
Deviantart http://evilessence.deviantart.com/
Furiffic https://www.furiffic.com/Evilessence/info
PROJECTS
My Little "Active" Ponies (Work out related drawings, sweating ponies)
It's exercise time every pony!!
FlutterShy =Done * http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18434261/
Princess Luna= Done http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16183316/
Apple Jack+ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27361791/
[ ++OPEN++ ]
Pinkie Pie
Twilight Sparkle
Rarity
Spike
Princess Celestia
King Sombra
Princess Amore
And any ones with a * are one's i would like to do again
Monster Musume no Iru Nichijou Manga {Everyday Life with Monster Girls}
[ ++OPEN++ ]
Suu (slime )
Papi (harpy)
Meroune (mermaid)
Centorea (centaur)
Rachnera (spider )
Tionishia (ogre)
Zombina (zombie)
Miia (naga/ lamia) =Done *
It's not much but it will be made with love. Like all of the work I do.
Which brings me to my next topic. So I have slowly been climbing out of the personal hell I have been stuck in for years. The climb is slow and painful, often times feeling endless. But the freedom is worth it!
Recently as most of yall can tell, I'm actually completing all the things I owe others and to myself. If you know me well, sometimes that's near impossible. For one reason or another, not trying to excuse it. Just saying my life has been made of pure chaos for a while. And has staggered my artist life to a damn stand still.
Things have not been easy for me. And emotionally this year has been the hardest. So many painful good byes, lessons and losses.
But I am still here and I will fight with every tooth and nail that i have to change things. I refuse on all accounts to give up everything I worked so hard to bring to life. Even tho, i wanted to give up many times. I used many negstive and taboo coping mechanisms, and im not whole hearted happy with that. Not when I am now so close to being where I want to be. And doing it successfully, in the way I always wanted to. So i wanted more than anything to turn that around.
That being said i want to share with you some feelings i have on life and shit that happens.
Not everyone will love u, not everyone will be there for you, support you or even be genuine. Lots of people will lie straight to YOUR FACE, hate on you for no reason, some will do so while smiling at you while take advantage of you and then get upset when you don't roll over.
Don't ever give-in to that garbage. You are worth so much more. The talent you have in your heart. The tears you have cried. The blood you have in your body and the breath in your lungs all deserves all the happiness in the world. You deserve to be happy. Doesn't matter who betrayed you, who wasn't there for you and who doesn't understand you. None of that matters. What matters is that you keep on being the best and brightest of you. Keep going even when you want to just give up and give in.
Becuz I love you. Love should not be reserved only for intimate relationships. People are so crule, selfish and fickle. I have been hurt in ways that would breaks people.
And if I can love and give love to all the people( and things) that make me who I am. Genuinely after all the pain....
Then you deserved to be loved and hear that you are worth it too.
Too often it's never said. And too often we are forced to bear the burden of pain in silence. Hurting ourselves privately in our own personal hells. But you are strong and tears do not make you weak.
Giving in to those bastards that try to grind you down, that makes you weak. But friends make us strong!! We are friends, right?
So to all my friends and all the people who need to hear this, to you I say :
You are not alone. We are all in this together. You are worth the gift of life. You are special. You will always be worth it. So fight with all your heart, and never give in. We as friends will always be stronger together.
I mean that. I've been there, I'm still there but I won't leave my friends behind to rot in the pain.
Much love and good vibes to everyone, especially those that need it.
Have the best day you can.
-ee
♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡
Reminder for a chance to win free arts!
The Goal Mark Free art Raffle!!!
When I hit these Goals. I will make a raffle for some gift art!!! It will be for EVERYONE that Followers/watch(es) those accounts. After goal(s) are hit; a New Goal will be placed up
Instagram>>500 (CURRENT COUNT 358)
FA>> 1,100 (CURRENT COUNT 1011)
SOCIAL MEDIAS
Instagram https://www.instagram.com/evilessence/
FaceBook art page http://www.facebook.com/EvilessenceDarkstar
Youtube (for events i attend, not really v-blog) evilessencedarkstar
Deviantart http://evilessence.deviantart.com/
Furiffic https://www.furiffic.com/Evilessence/info
PROJECTS
My Little "Active" Ponies (Work out related drawings, sweating ponies)
It's exercise time every pony!!
FlutterShy =Done * http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18434261/
Princess Luna= Done http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16183316/
Apple Jack+ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27361791/
[ ++OPEN++ ]
Pinkie Pie
Twilight Sparkle
Rarity
Spike
Princess Celestia
King Sombra
Princess Amore
And any ones with a * are one's i would like to do again
Monster Musume no Iru Nichijou Manga {Everyday Life with Monster Girls}
[ ++OPEN++ ]
Suu (slime )
Papi (harpy)
Meroune (mermaid)
Centorea (centaur)
Rachnera (spider )
Tionishia (ogre)
Zombina (zombie)
Miia (naga/ lamia) =Done *
Let me reassure you that it WILL GET BETTER, 2018 for me has been one of the best years of my life, let alone the most PRODUCTIVE year of my life. Your time just hasn't come yet, but it definitely will, and probably this year, too. :) Keep your head up. Thanks for writing this