I'm never here anymore, whoops ^^; I'd almost prefer my presence here to not exist at all.

Update on the concert, turns out the whole time my friend was wanting me to pay, even though the whole time he knew that I had no money (I brought it up preeeeetty often) and that I had to cancel in the first place because I couldn't afford it. And then they had a family emergency and his job wanted him to work the day of the concert and I just let it fall apart as they failed to understand that even if I wanted to, I couldn't afford to help with financial stuff. So I backed out and then I was given all that bad info afterward. Nice to know it would've never happened anyway even if I suddenly gained hundreds of dollars, it was stupid of me to trust another person to make one of my dreams come true, especially an untrustworthy and flaky guy (my friend's husband).

I kinda wanna delete my account. Or at least unwatch almost everyone I'm watching. Sick of seeing thousands of submissions that I have to clear out because the number bothers me. I don't draw a ton and I post here in case someone else might like or see what I post, but few people ever do. I don't buy art, I don't sell art, I don't do trades, and I don't socialize (already learned that lesson).

I feel annoyed every time I come here. ^^; I come and see no nice notifications like comments or favorites, just heaps of submissions and journals I'm not going to look at because there are too many. I don't get to enjoy any specific artists much because I'm watching too many people here. I come here and I nuke my submissions and journals and then leave.

I have little reason to be here. I just wish I could stop getting the compulsion to come check my notifications.