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===Welp. Guess I Had No Choice But to Do PTI===
7 years ago
Hey guys and gals.
So a lot has been going on. Still on a semi-hiatus from drawing (doing commissions but trades and requests will be strictly on hold for the time being).
I went to court on July 23rd, and it was just one hell of a fucking day. I caved under pressure and decided to do the Pre-Trial Intervention that was offered so I was stuck with taking care of that. I ended up walking to two separate locations afterwards, one to see if I qualified for the program (which I did) and the other to finalize the decision and sign me up for Anger Management courses (since it's part of that PTI program). Problem with PTI is that I cannot miss a single day or else I get royally fucked over and it means that I get sent back to the court house. Whoop-de-doo...
And of course, given that it's issued by the government and I am obligated to do it now that I was signed up for it... Those classes are fairly expensive. They are charging me $450 USD for the whole shebang. I think this is something I never would have ever thought to consider doing ever and it hurts me considering that I know I was only defending myself as well as the well-being of my dogs. The fact that I am taking this low of a dive just so I don't have any more problems with what is happening really is hurting me mentally. I went home only to go to bed. I didn't say hello to anybody, I was so emotionally drained from that one day alone that I didn't want to speak to anybody in fear that I would just break down crying right in front of them.
At the very least with this out of the way, you guys know that I am alive and that I am safe living with my friends (given that I still have the stay-away order on me). At this point in my life I don't know what else to do other than to attend the classes and show that I am in fact a responsible adult trying to do my best despite how difficult life can be.
I'll see about how I can save up the extra cash via commissions or something because my job right now (I work at a puppy store now) doesn't pay me a whole bunch (being paid minimum wage) to say that I can thoroughly manage my life without stress. I pay $200 a month for rent when I live now (because I'm rooming with friends), I am paying off credit card debt (I pay as much as I can every paycheck so I can get out of the debt fast), plus the fact that I have to buy food for lunch and dinner (I can't cook for shit, so it's tough on me whenever I see how much my expenses are). If you know anyone at all looking forward to commission an artist, please send them my way. I would greatly appreciate it as I really could use the cash to pay off this mess that I'm in.
You're free to e-mail me if you need anything ( ladynightosphere[at]gmail.com )
I'm hoping all goes well so that I may continue living my life calmly and maybe less stressful once this whole thing just blows over.
Once again, I would like to thank all of you that have been following my art page for the longest time. It speaks volumes and it frankly means a lot to me. I hope to continue posting soon once I can get my life figured out a little better. But for now I've gotta manage what I can and take it as calm as possible.
I will be sure to send peoples your way! <3