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NOT GOING TO BE HOMELESS!....
7 years ago
Just really broke. So we found a place that will accept us and the cats. Its not what we were hopeing for. But it will have to do. Its costing us about $900 -$940 a month. With pet fees included. Hence the 940. In other words, we can barely afford it. But we have no other option.
Its also like 5 blocks from the city, So there is a chance that we will encounter the bad side of the city at some point. But at best we only have to wait 2 years or worst case 1 year before we eithewr leave NY state anfd go to Virgina. Or have to find a new place to live. The land lord did warn us that rent might go up again next year. Because costs go up. But if that happans we get 2 full months to look instead of a 30 day BS notice.
Update on our current situation.
The landlord did not go through proper channels for the eveiction. So even if he took us to court he would lose. And we would have gotton another 30 days. But dealing weith him for another month would have been torcher. As he has already threatend us with violance more than once. I was hopeing he would do something stupid like change the locks, or actually try to cause physical garm to my brother. Sadly he hasnt done that.
In other news reguarding me. Im glad its over. Ever since this whole thing started my mental health has plumited. I seriously contemplated committing suicide by hanging a few days ago. And i feel the only thing that stopped me was the lack of rope, and the knowledge of how to tie a noose not. I dont like talking about my feelings much. Or the things iv done. So these thoughts and the only attempt I have are very close to me. I know that its not worth it, And that if I did commit, that many people would be sad and heart broken. Mom has literally told me she would loose her mind and need to be hospitalized for insanity.
It just shows me that I am loved. And I guess if I really wanted to die, I could have just stood on the train tracks that are by my house. Guess that proves I dont want to die. Not like that anyway.
In other news, we are worried about our cats. Mostly Zeus, hes lost alot of weight and it doesnt make sense cause hes always eating. So we think he might have cancer. And considering he was a stary barn cat when we got him as a kitten, his background is a complete mistery. Zena (yes I know its xena, but thats not how we spell if for her) Is just full of clumped hair called mats. And there getting worse, We shad her shaved once because of it, But we lack the $$$ to do so again. And none of us are to keen to get clawed up to try and do it our selves. Moms doing what she can....
In car news, it needs brakes. Specificall new brake pads. But to have that done is like $400. Money we dont have. Sadly if we dont get new pads it will go from 400 to $1800. Because We will need new pads, rotors, and possably calipers. Moms car has disk brakes. Not drum brakes. And while I have done brakes In an actual shop. I dont have what I need to do it. And I dont think my brother, who pays for the car, trusts me to do it. Which is just dumb, because its my mom, and all three of us use that car for everything. Granted me nor my brother have a license so mom drives us everywhere.
I thought about getting my license but the actuall though of driving scares me. And I dont want to have a panic attack when driving, so yea.
Well thats it, Thats everything thats happend since my last update. Granted next to no one reads these. Even if they do they never comment. Every now and then I geet one comment from someone thats not Caleb or Cave. (You know who you are, thank you) So this is it, my next update will probably after the move, wish us luck, we'll need it.
Its also like 5 blocks from the city, So there is a chance that we will encounter the bad side of the city at some point. But at best we only have to wait 2 years or worst case 1 year before we eithewr leave NY state anfd go to Virgina. Or have to find a new place to live. The land lord did warn us that rent might go up again next year. Because costs go up. But if that happans we get 2 full months to look instead of a 30 day BS notice.
Update on our current situation.
The landlord did not go through proper channels for the eveiction. So even if he took us to court he would lose. And we would have gotton another 30 days. But dealing weith him for another month would have been torcher. As he has already threatend us with violance more than once. I was hopeing he would do something stupid like change the locks, or actually try to cause physical garm to my brother. Sadly he hasnt done that.
In other news reguarding me. Im glad its over. Ever since this whole thing started my mental health has plumited. I seriously contemplated committing suicide by hanging a few days ago. And i feel the only thing that stopped me was the lack of rope, and the knowledge of how to tie a noose not. I dont like talking about my feelings much. Or the things iv done. So these thoughts and the only attempt I have are very close to me. I know that its not worth it, And that if I did commit, that many people would be sad and heart broken. Mom has literally told me she would loose her mind and need to be hospitalized for insanity.
It just shows me that I am loved. And I guess if I really wanted to die, I could have just stood on the train tracks that are by my house. Guess that proves I dont want to die. Not like that anyway.
In other news, we are worried about our cats. Mostly Zeus, hes lost alot of weight and it doesnt make sense cause hes always eating. So we think he might have cancer. And considering he was a stary barn cat when we got him as a kitten, his background is a complete mistery. Zena (yes I know its xena, but thats not how we spell if for her) Is just full of clumped hair called mats. And there getting worse, We shad her shaved once because of it, But we lack the $$$ to do so again. And none of us are to keen to get clawed up to try and do it our selves. Moms doing what she can....
In car news, it needs brakes. Specificall new brake pads. But to have that done is like $400. Money we dont have. Sadly if we dont get new pads it will go from 400 to $1800. Because We will need new pads, rotors, and possably calipers. Moms car has disk brakes. Not drum brakes. And while I have done brakes In an actual shop. I dont have what I need to do it. And I dont think my brother, who pays for the car, trusts me to do it. Which is just dumb, because its my mom, and all three of us use that car for everything. Granted me nor my brother have a license so mom drives us everywhere.
I thought about getting my license but the actuall though of driving scares me. And I dont want to have a panic attack when driving, so yea.
Well thats it, Thats everything thats happend since my last update. Granted next to no one reads these. Even if they do they never comment. Every now and then I geet one comment from someone thats not Caleb or Cave. (You know who you are, thank you) So this is it, my next update will probably after the move, wish us luck, we'll need it.
