After playing a weird little kinky furry game, I just realized... how much I truly miss having a relationship. That little game had some cute relations, and, well, they reminded me of Griff and I before we broke up due to incompatibilities. but we still had a bond, and a bond over some seriously strange weirdness. And I fucking loved that. I lived for that. We worked on the same wavelength. We were both creatives. That was all I wanted, all I needed.
But that's gone. Griff doesn't talk to me anymore. Those incompatabilites were too much. The people who are interested in me are not quite what I want. They're nice, but... just too uninteresting. I don't want to be a fucking housewife. I want to have a partner who understands my weirdness and has their own strain of strangeness that cooperates with mine.
The realization of what I was lacking just hit me hard. I miss having some to love on and love on me in return. Someone who understood me. Gods, Im cracking already- that depression that's gone and left me a year ago when griff and I got together is returning and slamming me. Im fucking crying as I write this.
I miss it so... ;w;