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Goodbye Mavra/Rethinking things in life
7 years ago
A bit if a dual post here to say goodbye to someone I liked on FurryMUCK and to also help soothe this depression I have sunk into.
First off: A goodbye to Mavra the centaur, also known as Mavraster on here. Although we definitely crossed paths several times on FM, I really didn't get to know her until a few or so years ago when I decided to go with my plush character. (Might have known her a bit earlier, but my memory is crap.) I know there are others who knew her longer and way better than I did, but something about her loss has really impacted me the past few days. I guess I was so busy when I first found out she had died, that I was sad, but had plenty of distraction. But, a few days ago the feelings really hit me when I found out I had missed her memorial on FM and, unfortunately, after fighting a bit of depression for a while it really sunk me. It's a three way thing right now. Sadness from her death, empathy for her friends, and regret that I will never get to know her even better and that I should have talked with her more.
Now, that said, her death has sort of put some things into perspective for me. Working retail has caused me to become rather introverted, which is what often caused me to not join in on discussions with her and others, even though the subject was of interest to me as well. I've decided that I HAVE to break out of this loop somehow. I wish I could just drop my job at the store like a ton of bricks, but I can't do that. One thing I can do is stop running around trying to collect stuff and start going places to meet people and socialize a bit more. One thing I am really thinking about doing is going to either a furcon or furmeet within reasonable distance from where I live here in Ohio. It's time I finally tried to do that stuff again. Who knows? Maybe I will meet and make some new friends along the way. As long as they don't mind a person who is a bit of a fixer-upper. First off I need to shake this depression and get some work done on the van!
First off: A goodbye to Mavra the centaur, also known as Mavraster on here. Although we definitely crossed paths several times on FM, I really didn't get to know her until a few or so years ago when I decided to go with my plush character. (Might have known her a bit earlier, but my memory is crap.) I know there are others who knew her longer and way better than I did, but something about her loss has really impacted me the past few days. I guess I was so busy when I first found out she had died, that I was sad, but had plenty of distraction. But, a few days ago the feelings really hit me when I found out I had missed her memorial on FM and, unfortunately, after fighting a bit of depression for a while it really sunk me. It's a three way thing right now. Sadness from her death, empathy for her friends, and regret that I will never get to know her even better and that I should have talked with her more.
Now, that said, her death has sort of put some things into perspective for me. Working retail has caused me to become rather introverted, which is what often caused me to not join in on discussions with her and others, even though the subject was of interest to me as well. I've decided that I HAVE to break out of this loop somehow. I wish I could just drop my job at the store like a ton of bricks, but I can't do that. One thing I can do is stop running around trying to collect stuff and start going places to meet people and socialize a bit more. One thing I am really thinking about doing is going to either a furcon or furmeet within reasonable distance from where I live here in Ohio. It's time I finally tried to do that stuff again. Who knows? Maybe I will meet and make some new friends along the way. As long as they don't mind a person who is a bit of a fixer-upper. First off I need to shake this depression and get some work done on the van!
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On the latter note I think I can understand where you are coming from a little. For years I was a collector of many things, including antique radios much like yourself. Slowly I have broken out of my shell and started concentrating more on being more socially outgoing, and even have taken to attending furry cons and other social events on a fairly regular basis. It's not an immediate process, but slowly you'll get there.
So far as getting out to a couple of furry events, I have heard good things about Indy Fur con, AC is probably not what I would recommend for a first go round though. I am of course basing this off the fact you are in Ohio, there are lots of amazing events if you are willing to travel a little.
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8833822/