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The Money Problem

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So I'm a gamer, or was I guess. But something happened, I began to lose interest in the things I liked. It's strange ya know? Funny like. Personally I blame depression, it's like 99% to blame for everything. But thanks to my lame job strange stuff has been happening, like more money than I am used to. This isn't true of course, all that money is being used for bills and payments but there is still a degree of savings and recreational spending for the sake of sanity that I never had for most of my life.

Think about it, going 20+ years of one's life pinching literal pennies and begging others for help then suddenly being able to toss $60 or even $120 into something because it fit the monthly spending budget? It's surreal even, and in this day and age of Humble Bundle and Steam sales I've ended up with pretty much every videogame I've ever wanted all at the same time. This as it turns out is a problem because of psychology!

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The Dark Soul

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Dark Souls you see is brilliant. If we as people do not hold onto a purpose, a goal, we wither away. Likewise when we attain our purpose we lose it unless we find anew. I kinda had the same way with games. I bought too many at once whenever I wanted when it fit into my budget, now I'm sitting on many unplayed and emotionally wracked about it. I now feel less accomplished and less willing to engage in them one by one because the value of having spent money on them has lessened than when I was a child having to pinch pennies. Back then when I tossed $10 into a shitty game I played the shitty game because I put my savings into it. Today that's just a blip, a fingernail of effort.

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The Upside
This means yes I've been drawing more art whenever I can as it has been more accomplishing than gaming :P.