you're desperate aren't you?

i think you're taking it too far. you need to chill down.

relax. i'm not going anywhere.

you push and pull me.

you keep saying we're not an item but it's obvious that you like me.
be honest with yourself

look. we're going around in circles here.

sure i like being with you but that doesn't make me your boyfriend.

why does everything have to be so formal and follow all the steps?
i just like you. i don't think i like-like you, you know.

sometimes you sound so mature and other times you're like a little baby. (9_9)

i'm following the steps of a relationship because that's what you do.
we're way more than friends now. why you have to put up barriers?

honestly i don't know what to tell you and i can't tell you what you want to hear.

i don't want to friendzone you but your advances are putting me off the whole idea.
we had a great friendship. i'm not sure what this thing is now.

you idiot. we're in love

no. you're in love. i'm just being nice.

you don't treat anyone else the same way

that's because i understand you on a deep level and know what's best for you.

that doesn't make me a partner

you're more of a lover than you even understand

can you please stop using the crying emote it's upsetting me. i know you're not really crying.

all i see myself as is something you need.
you've got problems, you need help.

i need you because i love you

well i appreciate it but i don't know how to respond to that.

i can't choose how i feel and i'm not feeling it

you're lying. i know you feel it. i can tell by your words.

just because i'm nice and friendly that doesn't mean i love you.

i care for you, i enjoy your company, we have a lot in common, these are not romantic things specifically.

you're an idiot and i hope that one day you wake up and realize what you missed

honestly i kinda hope i do to. that would be a lot easier than where i am now.

you think you're so smart John. you think nobody can read between the lines.

you don't even know yourself. everyone else has figured it out. you're fooling no-one.

well i seem to be fooling myself rather well because i honestly have no clue.

everyone else is trying to pair us up and the way i see it you're no better judge of yourself than yourself.
if i don't get it then i must be right. i know myself very well. i spent my entire life learning myself. how can i be wrong?

because this is something you've never had before. it's automatic, you don't think it. not everything can be explained with facts.

but i don't feel it either. i've had emotions before. i know what they're like. there's nothing here.

maybe you've never felt love before. it's new. you can't see the signs.

well i seem to be checking all the boxes according to you and the internet.

i don't know how i'm taking all the right actions subconsciously.

maybe i'm just following trends.

nobody is too hipster to love john 9_9

no. i mean that maybe my brain has learned the right responses and is following them against my knowledge.
i don't think my actions are coming from emotions.

you're just far too you you know.

you're the one that needs to relax and just let it come naturally.

but nothing is coming.
it's not like i'm a sea of emotion and i'm trying to hold back the tide and lie to you.
i honestly feel nothing.

something is very wrong with you.

i guess we're both broken.
we can fix each other.

well here's to that.
i guess that's something we can agree on.

thanks for the talk.

it didn't go anywhere but it was nice to talk.
i like talking to you. you always seem to make me feel better but i don't know how.

trust me it's calculated.
i've had a lot of experience.

i'm just glad your not gonna keep being psycho this early in the morning.

in a way i like talking to you. it's very refreshing.

you too. you're like a cold drink of water.

and you're like a shot of whiskey

yay! we go together

i think maybe that metaphor was more apt than i anticipated.

we go together like whiskey and water.
opposites attract

i think we really do blend in a way.
the definition of that blending is the question.

we bang later okay?

he means chat for anyone listening.

yeah i'll chat with you later. just keep yourself on a leash.

kay, whatever you wanna do it.

yeah. he does this thing where he twists my words and makes it adult somehow.

i just nod gently and stare at them like i haven't already phased out of the conversation.

notice he's nodding everyone

here on display the freak on a leash.

the lyrics of that song are way more apt for you darling

please don't elaborate

i opened this and a whole ton of shit fell out

this was flame bait i swear

this didn't turn out how i expected

RAGE