I am sick and tired of the direction my life has taken. It seems like every passing day I've been given more proof that my life is for me to fight alone in. Every passing day I get more and more comments from people that:

A) They don't care about me or my problems
B) I like being in this state and that I deserve to be like this
C) It isn't their business and they don't care

Every passing day I've been getting more and more abandoned by my family and my friends. I've been further convinced that they only give a damn about changing me and don't care about who I am. More and more people write me off as a joke and a dead-end person with no future.

Of course, this doesn't mean that I'm well, going to do something extreme. There's nothing else to do but enjoy life the way it is on my own. All I just know is that I'm abandoned and a piece of trash that is to be mocked. No one even cares about who I am or what kind of person I am, they only see flaw after flaw after flaw. I'm probably a stupid child to these people and they've up and let me behind, forgetting that I've ever existed.

I watch on as people have better support while I have to face being pushed away every day. I'm being told that their lives are more difficult but I can't believe that given that they're just spitting on me and laughing at the stupid pathetic person in front of them.

Sure, I am stupid, retarded and a piece of utter shit. I concede that this is all true and that I am also a friendless motherfucker who should die alone. I get that, and I accept it. And I'm happy that I'm finally recognized for my pathetic duty I have to this world. I doubt anyone or anything can save me as I'm all alone.

I'm just a loser, and I need to get over that and drill it into my fucking head.

A loser manchild,
Ado