Please, if he has the heart to forgive me. I just want him to know that I screwed up, I'm an asshole, and I deserve every bit of his scorn. I've never felt the way I do right now in my entire life. It's painful, without any exaggeration. I'm in pain.

Please...just give me a chance to redeem myself. Even if I might not deserve it, I beg you for one more chance. On your terms, let me prove myself.

I said awful things, things that I didn't mean. Things that I regret saying. I always valued your friendship, but I was jealous of you, envious of what you had. But in truth, I was too much of a coward to admit that I aspired to you.


If that's not enough to convince myself, I felt my heart wrench when you said goodbye. It was the worst feeling I've ever felt in my life, and it was because you left. I liked you as a friend, and if you didn't matter to me, I wouldn't have felt like something was pulled from my soul.


I feel sick, ashamed, undeserving of you. But I just ask that you come back, just so I can apologize and prove that I'm worth your time.


Please dude, come back. I beg you. I will make this up to you, in any way that you ask. I will endure your punishment, your judgment, because I deserve both.


Hope to hear from you soon.

-JC