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Apologies for going AWOL, rambling explanation if u want
7 years ago
hi, all. sorry for the radio silence of 4 months or so.
i had a series of life emergencies. my partner has been going through some surgeries, ive almost been to the hospital a handful of times myself (i probably should have gone i just cant afford it). family not doing well. having a lot of personal struggles besides all this. went through 2 months of anguish and torture. it has been the hardest time of my life so far. my life is still kind of in pieces.
i took a break because drawing stopped being fun amid the stress i was under all that time. god knows i could have used the money from commissions but i dont want drawing to not be fun. i dont want it to be something i feel like i have to do to survive even when i want to stop, which it had started to feel like the first time my partner needed emergency surgery. i couldnt focus on making good art when i was worried about my partners health and how we were going to afford treatment and groceries and bills etc. i was scared and i didnt want furry porn to be the thing that was keeping me afloat. i finished paid commissions and despite being fatigued, i set out new YCHs and felt a sense of dread. i realized i desperately needed to take some time for myself. i hope you all understand. taking care of yourself is important and i urge you all to do so when necessary! burn out takes a long time to recover from and is not worth it.
fortunately we are in a stable place again in terms of survival. we are in a better living arrangement, have food to eat, and my partner has worked out some financial aid for his medical costs. some things are still tough, but not nail-bitingly so.
i can't say for sure how permanently i will be back. i'm having some health problems of my own that i'm struggling to manage.
i have some halloween costume goals i'd really like to fund because its my favorite holiday/season of the year and i want to do something fulfilling in that arena but if i end up getting stressed then i may have to take another break. i never want to let anybody down and i certainly won't push myself harder than i can go. my personal health has been really precarious lately and i can't afford a hospital trip.
i haven't drawn at all this whole time, sexy stuff or not. hopefully i can get into the swing of things without much resistance.
if you care to do so you can wish me peace and health lol.
i had a series of life emergencies. my partner has been going through some surgeries, ive almost been to the hospital a handful of times myself (i probably should have gone i just cant afford it). family not doing well. having a lot of personal struggles besides all this. went through 2 months of anguish and torture. it has been the hardest time of my life so far. my life is still kind of in pieces.
i took a break because drawing stopped being fun amid the stress i was under all that time. god knows i could have used the money from commissions but i dont want drawing to not be fun. i dont want it to be something i feel like i have to do to survive even when i want to stop, which it had started to feel like the first time my partner needed emergency surgery. i couldnt focus on making good art when i was worried about my partners health and how we were going to afford treatment and groceries and bills etc. i was scared and i didnt want furry porn to be the thing that was keeping me afloat. i finished paid commissions and despite being fatigued, i set out new YCHs and felt a sense of dread. i realized i desperately needed to take some time for myself. i hope you all understand. taking care of yourself is important and i urge you all to do so when necessary! burn out takes a long time to recover from and is not worth it.
fortunately we are in a stable place again in terms of survival. we are in a better living arrangement, have food to eat, and my partner has worked out some financial aid for his medical costs. some things are still tough, but not nail-bitingly so.
i can't say for sure how permanently i will be back. i'm having some health problems of my own that i'm struggling to manage.
i have some halloween costume goals i'd really like to fund because its my favorite holiday/season of the year and i want to do something fulfilling in that arena but if i end up getting stressed then i may have to take another break. i never want to let anybody down and i certainly won't push myself harder than i can go. my personal health has been really precarious lately and i can't afford a hospital trip.
i haven't drawn at all this whole time, sexy stuff or not. hopefully i can get into the swing of things without much resistance.
if you care to do so you can wish me peace and health lol.
You definitely have to take care of yourself, and I'm glad that you have your priorities straight. Take it easy.