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When Feelings Begin to Crush...
7 years ago
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As I'm not quite sure how many people really give-a-damn about anyone that isn't an artist they can mooch off of on FurAffinity...not even sure why I'm bothering to post this for that exact reason above...but I've never been one to keep silent on problems that always need facing...
I'm not quite sure how many people have seen my Journal update as of July...dealing with my family tragedy...
But after these last two-and-a-half months, the house is nearing completion for being put on the market. Just painting some more walls, last-little clean-ups here-and-there, and packing up the rest of my crap, and Mom's as well...but due to the nature of our Mom and I keep our bedrooms 'cool' via fans, we are told that they 'gotta go,' which means my computer (my rig, my gaming machine, my past-time and joy...until a certain individual arrives) can't stay here.
Money isn't one hundred percent an issue, but seeing as we have to keep paying on the house until we sell it, it is an inevitable issue. We haven't really gone out to eat, save for groceries, so most of what we eat now is 1,000x healthier than when my Father was around...shocker, huh?
In two weeks, I'll be moving into my Uncle's little condo, which...probably means in the next week, I'll have to visit for hours and clean his shit-hole up. He's a great, caring, comforting man, but like my Father...and even like myself, he doesn't really clean up much. Dust everywhere, shit thrown everywhere... *Sighs*
On top of this, I've been wanting to get back to streaming, but a lack of viewers and interest...of motivation...is keeping me from doing what I love doing. All I keep asking myself is, "When will things get back to normal?" And in some distant, far-off ethereal world, I can hear my Father's voice saying, "It won't kiddo. You need to keep going."
*Curls up in a ball in some corner, and sobs for awhile.* I miss you Dad...
I'm not quite sure how many people have seen my Journal update as of July...dealing with my family tragedy...
But after these last two-and-a-half months, the house is nearing completion for being put on the market. Just painting some more walls, last-little clean-ups here-and-there, and packing up the rest of my crap, and Mom's as well...but due to the nature of our Mom and I keep our bedrooms 'cool' via fans, we are told that they 'gotta go,' which means my computer (my rig, my gaming machine, my past-time and joy...until a certain individual arrives) can't stay here.
Money isn't one hundred percent an issue, but seeing as we have to keep paying on the house until we sell it, it is an inevitable issue. We haven't really gone out to eat, save for groceries, so most of what we eat now is 1,000x healthier than when my Father was around...shocker, huh?
In two weeks, I'll be moving into my Uncle's little condo, which...probably means in the next week, I'll have to visit for hours and clean his shit-hole up. He's a great, caring, comforting man, but like my Father...and even like myself, he doesn't really clean up much. Dust everywhere, shit thrown everywhere... *Sighs*
On top of this, I've been wanting to get back to streaming, but a lack of viewers and interest...of motivation...is keeping me from doing what I love doing. All I keep asking myself is, "When will things get back to normal?" And in some distant, far-off ethereal world, I can hear my Father's voice saying, "It won't kiddo. You need to keep going."
*Curls up in a ball in some corner, and sobs for awhile.* I miss you Dad...
I know how tough it can be. As you know, I have been through a lot as well. And chances are there will still be things we will have to go through in the future. Such as is life. It can really suck at times.
I know you and I don't talk often, but please do know I care and I am always available to talk.
I hope that you can eventually find peace, and that life becomes better for you.