I have so much bad going on in my life and I'm just feeling super down. Not even my favorite people can pull me out of it...but maybe that's because they are also the ones causing some of the pain. I dont do good being alone. And yet here I am forced to be the most alone ive ever been in my life. I cant keep faking the happy anymore. I'm so worn down and tired. Socializing is a drag. Even venting is a drag because nothing can help my situation. I just need some loving. I wanna find a partner again. Someone to love and be loved by. Cuz right now I'm the only one putting anything out. Its how it's always been. Someone save me from myself v.v