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7 years ago
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So after taking an overdose with the intent of ending my life I instead went on a trip and spoke with the reaper who had some very meaningful words to tell me. I won't try that again. Not when the future is always so uncertain I will eventually meet him again but until then I will follow through and see things to the end.
That being said: It's not healthy for me to be living where I am, I'll be packing up in november and be aiming to be out of here before december. There is so much toxicity here and people are unwilling to acknowledge their abuse let alone change their behavior.
One day I'll find a house that I can call a "home". I've been so out of place for years.
What does this mean to you? - Well for starters I'm not dead (yay?) so you'll still get your commissions and see more art from me, but I won't be taking any new commissions until I'm settled into my new place and have completed most of my backlog. Though I may be making a YCH at some point to help aid my moving. It's very important that I get out of here, the woman that caused my first suicide attempt is living with us again and surprise surprise I was driven to attempt it again. I had made so much progress.
So yeah, I'm sorry for being so messed up the last little while I'm trying to be better but I've been so at odds with everything.
That being said: It's not healthy for me to be living where I am, I'll be packing up in november and be aiming to be out of here before december. There is so much toxicity here and people are unwilling to acknowledge their abuse let alone change their behavior.
One day I'll find a house that I can call a "home". I've been so out of place for years.
What does this mean to you? - Well for starters I'm not dead (yay?) so you'll still get your commissions and see more art from me, but I won't be taking any new commissions until I'm settled into my new place and have completed most of my backlog. Though I may be making a YCH at some point to help aid my moving. It's very important that I get out of here, the woman that caused my first suicide attempt is living with us again and surprise surprise I was driven to attempt it again. I had made so much progress.
So yeah, I'm sorry for being so messed up the last little while I'm trying to be better but I've been so at odds with everything.
Sometimes you feel that if you think that just going by method S, you will find peace or solve things for others and the rest of the world, but that is not the way out and find peace
But having to have such experiences or dreams with a celestial being in your mind, maybe it is a signal, that maybe we have what we want in the end, a better life but not by that method S, it is really overcoming what comes to us and above all accept and love ourselves
My words are not the best words to inspire or encourage someone I'm not very good with it but I'm trying, but I know what you are going through and you are not alone, I’ll support you, be strong, do not give up and my best wishes for you
I am under so much stress and the house I live in is just adding to it so much, even if I have to just leave to a library to get work done I should do that just to clear my head for a while.
If anything, I want to help you since you have helped me as well
Please get well soon 😔