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Update on life of a bear.
7 years ago
I figured it was time for a new up date, this bear is alive and relatively well. My absence from here this past year or so has be more or less a matter of motivation and time.
I recently few month ago moved to the city with my for a little over a year now mate. This last year has been tough financially but manageable, but its been an emotional roller coaster to say the least. year has brought lot of ups and down in both my personal life as well among friends and others i thought were friends..
right now im at a stage in my life of deciding to focus on myself after trying to be part of a local community, which over the last few months not been going so well. In short my emotions have been all over the place, not been sleeping and stepping back I felt has been right choice before I really snap and hurt friends before i do more damage..
Between emotions, depression and constant feeling of aches and pains last while its been hard to stay positive but this bear is trying.
Some days its getting harder and harder to do simple tasks like even using wrenches without my paws giving me pain to point i can hardly hold the wrench and feeling like it wants to lock up and a knee thats been progressively getting worse. may be time to start asking my doctor, as im still young. taking pain meds for the pain almost every day is not a good thing to do..
On another sorta plus side I have an appointment coming up for mental assessment, to help me understand my own mind. and maybe get real answers or help understanding why my mind thinks way it do.. maybe first step in getting the help mentally i really need. Maybe address the vulnerable and emotionally overwhelmed side i rarely show to only very close people.
soo.. yeah mind going blank now latter from your friendly bear friend.
*hugs*
I recently few month ago moved to the city with my for a little over a year now mate. This last year has been tough financially but manageable, but its been an emotional roller coaster to say the least. year has brought lot of ups and down in both my personal life as well among friends and others i thought were friends..
right now im at a stage in my life of deciding to focus on myself after trying to be part of a local community, which over the last few months not been going so well. In short my emotions have been all over the place, not been sleeping and stepping back I felt has been right choice before I really snap and hurt friends before i do more damage..
Between emotions, depression and constant feeling of aches and pains last while its been hard to stay positive but this bear is trying.
Some days its getting harder and harder to do simple tasks like even using wrenches without my paws giving me pain to point i can hardly hold the wrench and feeling like it wants to lock up and a knee thats been progressively getting worse. may be time to start asking my doctor, as im still young. taking pain meds for the pain almost every day is not a good thing to do..
On another sorta plus side I have an appointment coming up for mental assessment, to help me understand my own mind. and maybe get real answers or help understanding why my mind thinks way it do.. maybe first step in getting the help mentally i really need. Maybe address the vulnerable and emotionally overwhelmed side i rarely show to only very close people.
soo.. yeah mind going blank now latter from your friendly bear friend.
*hugs*
If you can afford it some sort of Dr. care would probably be wise (I don't know your health insurance status). Is your poor sleep mostly due to how you feel mentally and/or are you having breathing difficulties?
Second, taking pain relievers constantly is really tough on the kidneys, doing it for long enough can reduce their ability to do their job. When I had my Cancer they also found that between high blood pressure and pain relievers use I'd damaged my remaining kidney, it now operates at about 45%