I'm combining three journals, because I don't want to spam you guys.
Without further dudes...


So, I've been gone (posting-wise) for approximately FOUR MONTHS. The last thing I posted was Tyson's ref, which everyone loved, as he has 12 faves as of today.

I'm sorry about this. This is because of bad weather and sluggishness due to a lack of sleep (Depression-related) and energy (also Depression). So, I'm glad to be back to posting again. I'll explain below in the third section why it's not art I owe. I apologize once again. I never say that to garner sympathy or to take the blame off of myself. I feel guilty every day, hour, minute, SECOND I'm not doing art that I owe. I hate myself for not being able to focus. I hate wasting tons of hours, moping around for who knows what. I know I'm a horrible person and if you're upset with me for the long wait, I understand it. I'm not motivated to draw anything at certain times of the day/on certain days. If get like this, it hinders me for weeks. Also, I have this weird mental thing like... I can't explain it? I need to talk to a doctor or something about it. (...wait, I'm a docto--)

It's like... how do I explain it? My mind is confused about how I draw things?? I... uh... I'll mentally ask myself: "How do I draw again?" and like, a couple days later, in the middle of the night, exhausted as HELL, I draw 700 sketches. In one of those sittings, I drew a few sketches I owe, but I have to push myself to color them in. ><

They do exist! I can show proof! (I just hate showing WIPs of other people's art to them, as I find flaws in them after I do it and I want to toss myself in the trash) I also hate showing my own, as I tend to do it about... either... like... 3+ days too late and I updated it at least 2 times by then.
I hate drawing sometimes... ;u;

Sorry for always being negative, it's sorta my mood 24/7 offline, so I bring it online at times. You don't even want to KNOW what kinds of journals I write when venting... be glad I haven't released them onto the world. Having no internet saved you all!
tl;dr: i suck when i'm mad

Sorry for saying sorry for much.
...uh...
Hmm.
L-Let's just move on, shall we?

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Upcoming Characters!


So, I've made so many new characters and this may change over time, as I change my mind over everything, but here's the line-up:

- Sorbet's siblings
- Some Dobermans
- Some Doberman mixes
- A Berger Picard
- A Labrador Retriever
- A Labrador/Vizsla Mix
- Two Poodle/Saluki Mixes
- A Mastiff
- A Tosa Inu
- A Standard Poodle
- A Dachshund
- Some mutts
- An Am Staff
- An Airdale Terrier
- A Giant Schnauzer
- A Whippet
- An Akita
- A Thai Ridgeback
- A Dutch Shepherd Dog
- A Frisian Water Dog
- A Catahoula Leopard Dog
- A Cane Corso
- A Perro De Presa Canario (A Canary Dog.)
- A Chow Chow
- A Rottweiler
- More to come!

This is literally Year of the Dog for me. XD

I'm also working on the final designs for some other characters, like some K-9s!

And, I'm updating both of Connor's designs, Krystal's, Carrie's, Astrinka's... Also, the characters whose art got outdated by the time I updated my art style. Their hindlegs look bad, their faces, oh man... So, I'm going to be busy...

The Di's Pack AU is becoming it's own series! XD

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I've made more dog characters. I didn't realize it when this year first started. That it was Year of the Dog. Now, it seems that this is the MOST characters I've ever made in one year EVER. All dogs... I haven't made anything that's NOT a dog... Or at least, canine/canine-shaped.

Di's got a Dobersquad now, to say the least. I can't stop making female Dobermans! Or, should I say, DoberWOMEN?
Wait... Wait... Doberwomen... *flashbacks* BACK DOWN THE HOLE I GO! *swishes cape*

Speaking of Di, I'm planning on getting a suit of her and POSSIBLY Pierrot, if I can later. I can RP as Di a little better than Pierrot. Mostly because of the fact that I RP as a doctor/her irl normally anyway. While... being a clown is a lot harder. I suck at being social enough to be one. Pierrot's a little better at being silly in front of others. Also, I'm afraid of getting stabbed outside of the convention center. There's also the fact he's a Poodle and they're hard to make into partials. So... which character seems easier to go as? I mean, I'll have tons of doctor puns hurled at me! D: Why not go as Di?!

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I'm getting my internet back!

Yes, you read that right, I'm getting my internet back soon! I can't give an exact date, but my mom got a second job and now able to pay it off!

We're telling Xfinity to shove their triple play up their arse and just give us Wi-Fi. I'm just going to look at Netflix and YouTube anyway. >.> (oh, and blackpills for peepoodo, but that's another story)

I won't be talking to everyone once I get it back! I'm backed up on TWO, count 'em, TWO months of work, because of this stupid community center BS. So, I have to catch up on it first, THEN I'll be free to talk! I'll try to speak if I can, but I won't be able to be fully devoted like I used to be until I catch up.

[Negative talk start.]
As for people's art, I'm working on it. I know I said it 500 times, but this whole ordeal has drained me. I can barely get sleep, because when I sleep is in the daytime. When I'm on the internet is at night. When is the community center open? IN THE DAYTIME. So, I have to sacrifice sleep to come there and I HATE IT. I don't want to be all cranky or dazed, so that's why I'm avoiding major conversations with people. That's also why I'm not getting anything done. The internet, simply being on it, gave me inspiration for some reason. I don't even have to be looking at art. XD I just got a random idea without it even being related to what I'm looking up! The internet is LITERALLY an idea machine for me and it being gone has creatively hindered me. Not only that, I can't do research in an instant, so when I DO get ideas, I can't get refs for it and as such, I lose interest in it! Loads of pictures have been lost because of this! So, I'm glad I'm getting it back, so this won't happen anymore. Over a YEAR of not having it does horrible things to you. My sleep pattern is off BADLY. I also can't keep up with potential commissioners, because of the fact I can't communicate with them fast enough! >< Also, I would literally get ideas at that stupid place and not be able to draw them like I could at home. When I get home, I'm exhausted from walking and don't feel like drawing it. If I don't draw it immediately, I won't do it later. That means yet ANOTHER good idea down the tubes!
[Negative talk over.]

TL;DR: I'm getting my internet back. I will resume working on owed art. I will not be able to conversate well until I catch up on all of my backed-up work. Xfinity sucks.

>I just realized I haven't posted anything in like... 5 months on this account? Yikes. I have stuff to post, I just couldn't and would have time for the other stuff I need to do online, too.

- Sonje