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The appeal of forced infantilism (Deep Baby Burr Thoughts 3)
7 years ago
So after diagraming my cuter and cubbier babyfur feelings, now I wanted to grapple with my “dark side” of being a babyfur.
I know that a ton of babyfurs, and probably most furries in general, have sides like this. I also know that tons of furries have interests that are MUCH more extreme than mine, and that mine look very tame compared to most.
And yet, I still always feel embarrassed and “dirty” sometimes when I think about this side. I think it’s because it’s so different than the Uber happy and positive world that my cozier side has. There are definitely psychological connections, to be sure...but for the most part, emotionally they don’t relate.
So I think it will help me by writing this journal and explaining my interests. Then I think I’ll be making a fourth journal finding a way to find a happy way to bring them together and maybe find a little mental peace with them.
So for my “dark side”...since I try to keep everything on my page as clean as I can, I’ll basically say that it “excites” me. I think everyone can infer all they need to from that. But I will add that in the strongest form, it gets my heart pumping. In a very few extreme cases in my life, there have been been moments where it has even gotten my stomach churning to where I felt slightly sick/woozy.
I’m getting s commission that has some of these elements in them. As much as I LOVE it...it’s just so different than the cuddly Care Bear ones I’ve been getting.
So for me, my “dark side” centers around forced infantilism and humiliation. Those are the two big key features.
There are certain things that I really have no interest in at all, and in some cases even shut everything down for me. These main topics are anything violent, excessive wetting/messing, actual bondage, sissification, and anything sexual.
The interesting thing is there are small elements of each of those that are fine for me, which I may get into later. But the key thing is any of those simply support my main stronger feelings...I don’t get a whole lot out of any of those in themselves.
So for me, what excites me the most is the idea of an adult male character being forced to be dressed as and treated like a baby/cub against his will in an embarrassing fashion. What makes it the strongest is when this is done by a group of others, particularly when they are female.
Now, by doing some reading over the years, I’ve been able to find some general explanations for how this relates to other babyfur feelings. I think they key thing is that the idea of being babied against your will re-emphasizes helplessness, which is what real babies actually are.
So I guess what makes it so strong is that the idea of being babied against your will is the CLOSEST you can get to feeling what it’s like to be an actual baby/cub...which is what makes it so exciting, even if it doesn’t have emotional appeal. It’s like it’s on a deeper level.
However, I think the other piece that makes it so strong is that it 100% confirms the idea that the other people WANT to treat you like a bay/cub.
What’s always killed some of my babyfur fantasies in the past has been the idea that the other person is just treating me like a cub to humor me or make me happy. To me, that feels false and disingenuous. It makes me feel selfish and like I’m making the other one do something they don’t want to do. It doesn’t feel like real love.
And that’s what’s so fascinating to me...the idea that being humiliated by someone actually has a deep connection to the feeling of being loved by them.
I think it’s always blown me away how people enjoy taking care of babies. Mothers get a huge surge of emotion by taking care of their children as babies. But even young girls and teenage girls often have that natural maternal desire that I know I can’t relate to.
I think that’s why the idea of a male character being babied by female characters is always the strongest to me. It makes it more believable in my mind...it feels like their feelings of WANTING to do it so much stronger.
So that’s why for me, the most intense excitement comes from the idea of a group of females taking control. They have to choose a male who DOESN’T want to be babied and is mortified by it, but they want it. I think what makes it more real is when they have legit feelings about it that seem realistic...they can either think it’s funny, think it’s cute, or just enjoy the feeliing of power.
And it goes back to that feeling of helplessness for me. It’s the feeling that the females are in absolute control and get to do whatever they want to the male.
I think that’s why in these situations, the “classic” baby attire is so strong. It’s the way the females exert their power. To me, the bonnet is the best example. While most baby clothes (diapers, onesies, sleepers) serve some practical purpose, the bonnet is simply for decoration. It just makes the babied character loom cuter. It’s the ultimate power play by the females...they chose that bonnet to make the male look babyish in the way they wanted him to.
But I also like diapers and being powdered in a strong way because of the actual practical need. In those cases, it’s more of a matter of the baby being oblivious to needing a diaper. This is strong because it emphasizes the idea that the females know what they’re doing/talking about, and the babied one doesn’t...so just like a real baby, they ignore his feelings.
And that right there is a powerful feeling to me...I don’t like the idea that the females have truly malicious intent. I don’t like the idea that they WANT to make the male feel bad. Instead, I like the idea that either (a) they’re convinced that they’re right about him being a baby and nothing he does/says convinces them otherwise, or (b) they enjoy their feeling of POWER over him...that’s why they enjoy seeing him embarrassed, because it re-emphasizes the idea that they can do whatever they want to him.
So what’s funny is in these moments I tend to have their minds kind of go back and forth...I like the idea that they know what’s going on...they know he’s embarrassed and enjoy it because it shows he’s helpless. But they also know much more about babies and taking care of them than he does...so they can convince themselves that he’s just a baby and that they “know best”.
So it really is so much about power to me. The idea that they’re in control.
But of course, it has to be done open the baby context...because it’s all about tapping into the mindset of what it’s like to be a helpless baby.
So with all that said, I wanted to go through a few details that excite me and how they connect to these feelings.
-Cloth diapers: I really like this because it emphasizes that they know what’s going on and he doesn’t. Since most people don’t know how to put on/pin cloth diapers, I like the idea that they know how to put it on him, and he doesn’t...so not only does he not know how to take it off, but as they’re putting it on him, he doesn’t even understand how they’re doing it...just like a real baby.
Of course, he knows what a diaper IS and that by wearing one he’s becoming a baby. It’s just enough information to embarrass him, but not enough for him to be able to stop it.
-I like the verb “diaper”. To me, this seems to only be a word that people who’ll know a lot about babies use. The use of it re-emphasizes the idea that this baby realm is THEIRS...they chose it, not him. They are forcing on to him...he doesn’t want to be a part of it. He normally doesn’t think about it or know about it...they are dragging him into the world that they want.
-Bonnets, booties, Bibs, pacifiers, cute clothes: I already talked about this earlier, but it’s mainly just the idea that THEY are in charge of dressing him how THEY want.
However, the sissy idea kind of ruins this a little because to me it has to be a female babying a male. I feel like if he’s turned into a female, they aren’t loving him for being a male. Most people with my interests tend to be into the sissy idea, but for me, I guess it boils down to feeling that a boy needs to be loved for being a boy.
-Struggling: Obviously this is related to bondage. But for me, bondage gets a little too malicious and “adult”. I think it takes away from the idea that they’re treating him like a baby/cub. This is why I prefer the idea of them holding him and grabbing him instead...because people can do that with real babies.
I also think it adds onto the idea of teasing him. Letting him struggle some, but then re-exerting their power when they need to. I think this is why the idea of telling him to “hold still!” does a lot for me...it shows he’s struggling, but that they have the power to stop him...they’re actively choosing to.
-Being babied by a group: this is extremely powerful to me because it emphasizes three things: helplessness, embarrassment and attention. The group really makes it clear hoe helpless he is, but it also makes the situation that much more embarrassing. It’s like what’s happening can’t be hidden. But it’s also like they’re on the same team. Which leads to the idea of being the center of attention. Like a real baby, this connects to the idea that he’s getting all the love...it really magnifies the power of it all. This is about what they’re doing to him, and how they’re unified in doing so.
Being powdered/having the diaper put on: this has always been the most exciting thing to me. I think the reason why is that it’s the perfect transition from his “normal life” (where’s in control and isn’t even thinking about baby stuff) to the world of being forced to be a baby.
Obviously being naked is embarrassing, but then to have your naked parts being powdered really ratchets that up. On top of that, it also goes back to the feeling of “We know what’s best...we need to keep you clean, smelling nice, and not having a rash. We can ignore your fighting because you’re a a baby, you don’t know you need to be powedered”.
And putting on the diaper is the most powerful part. It’s like now he’s realizing that he’s being forced into their world. Apart from the “We know what’s best” that I described....the idea of needing a diaper is the most embarrassing thing about being a baby. So the fact that he’s FIGHTING against this so hard, that he DOESN’T want the diaper...but they DO want him to wear it and are actively putting it on him...it kind of wraps up everything all together.
Their knowledge of his embarrassment: it’s still hard for me to quite wrap my head around this. Again, I don’t like them having malicious intent to want to enjoy making him feel bad. I also like the idea of them ignoring his pleas and feelings because he’s a baby and they know best. But I also like the idea that they know he’s embarrassed and enjoy seeing him that way, and I can’t quite quantify that. I guess it just reasserts the idea that they’re in power and they KNOW it...kind of like an actual parent.
They know he’s not a real baby because they chose to treat this normal male adult like one. They know he doesn’t like it...they chose to do it to him, they’re not doing it to make him happy in any way. I guess they also think it’s cute how he wants to fight but can’t stop him.
So that’s the hardest part for me to focus on.
Anyway, it felt good to type all of that out, and hopefully it explains all of my feelings about this side of me and where it comes from.
I’ve actually gone back and looked at some of those comics you did for me years back Over these last few days,and they made me so happy. They’re done so incredibly well and the way you drew my character really made him come alive.
I think part of the reason why I got them from you is that you really seem to have the same mindset as me in that you have these different sides of being a babyfur (and you organize them into Gem and Star).
Obviously we have some differences in the details...namely who is being babied and who is doing it. A lot of that is probably linked to our personalities. But it’s nice to know we have a lot of the same big parts of it in common.
I do like it too when someone powerful gets babied, though it’s not essential. I think in my next journal I’m going to set up the ideal cuddly vs. forced midpoint to establish my most preferred option.
I think that’s why I like the Star character so much...she’s strong and powerful, but she’s not an ass. You still respect and value her as a character.
There are some stories where there’s an ass character who gets humiliated. While those have their appeal, and in some ways it makes you feel better because it feels more justified....it doesn’t hit my perfect happy medium that I’ll be searching for, I think your Star character is closer to that.
The gender thing is the big barrier for me. I do enjoy stories and art where the male is the one in power and the female is the one being babied (and of course male to male or female to female). But it’s always been harder for me to SUPER enjoy it unless it’s a female taking a care of a male. It’s almost ironic because emotionally I’m more on the gay side and am attracted to males.
It would be nice if I could SUPER get into it regardless of the gender because it would open things up even more. It’s weird because intellectually I know men take care of babaies and enjoy it. But it’s still kind of taboo for boys to take care of baby dolls, for example....so unfortunately the stereotypes are burned into my infantilism even though they don’t apply in my real life.
I saw you’re getting a story from horatio. I haven’t read it yet but I will soon. I’m sure it will offer me even more insight into your tastes (though your Star comic has as well). He offered to commission one for me too, and I’m quite interested in it.
Again, thanks for commenting!
I have a husband/daddy and i gotta say im very much a daddys girl, but theres something very special about being squished up against a mama's bosom *blushes* that just cant be beaten
For me there are a couple of barriers that I have to try to work through.
The first is that the humiliation/stuff for me comes in short bursts of excitement. It't not something I'm looking to sustain for a continuous period of time. So I need ways to be able to flow in and out of it.
The second is that if I'm looking for max excitement, I really am looking for multiple characters to baby me in that forced moment. However, even though you can still have some cuddly enjoyment with multiple characters simultaneously...I tend to prefer more intimate/small settings for that.
So what I think helps me reach that happy medium is somewhat like what you got in your Star comic. That's the idea of a loving person/character being able to switch into that forcing role but being able to switch out just as easily.
Of course, this is very common for many people...just the idea of rping in general and having a "safe word" or switch to take care of it.
However, I've yet to really get to the point where it's ideal. There are a few parts that are needed.
The first is...when in that forced mode, the babying person/people have to be RELENTLESS. They have to go all out to where I'm convinced that they've put aside their loving and their care. It's not to say those vibes don't come through at all in those forced moments...but they have to be able to convince me that they're not that person any more. Their desire to baby me no matter what I do (apart from the aforementioned safe word) has got to be there. So they have to be really good at acting out that role. I think online rp is too weak for me to get that vibe.
I think you do a really good job with Manda and Teca (sp) in your Star comic with that. Again, though, the difference is that you sustain it more throughout the comic (maybe more for the sake of the narrative), whereas for me I really only want it in short bursts. But they're very good at taking on that role, especially Teca.
The second issue for me they have to be just as good at going out of it. I need it to be that when it's over, we can go back to either being in loving cuddly/state or the complete normal state of mutual respect.
The third is that part of me wants it to be right int he middle (which I"ll also touch on in my next journal). Part of me really likes the idea of them playfully being in control of me (which again, you do a fair amount of in your Star comic), but not the extreme forced mode.
So it's really tough in reality to constantly switch between all of these modes.
As far as the male aspect goes....I have had fantasies of males I've been attracted to babying me. The problem is it's just not nearly as believable to me....it's harder for me to imagine taking place in the full way. I tend to imagine males finding it FUNNIER to baby me....but it always feels like that's the more natural motivation, to get a laugh out of it. The power dynamic doesn't seem to be motivated by that same kind of maternal instinct. It's just so much harder for me to clearly picture it. Maybe it's because I just don't see the kind of guys I'm attracted to having that same super strong wanting to take care of a baby instinct. But again, so much of this is just what's burned into my own brain.
I low key feel like my needs disgust people ✌ not to get too depressing or whatever but that's just what it is.
I can relate to what you're describing to a degree. My sexuality is hard to fully describe, but I am also asexual in the aspect that I am not sexually attracted to males nor females by themselves.
I do, however, have EMOTIONAL attractions to males that is on a romantic level, not just friendship. As I just mentioned, I have TONS of fantasies about females in the babyfur realm.
I can relate to the idea of feeling shut down because I don't think I'll ever find someone who I'm attracted to that will also accept my babyfurism and love me for it. I've kind of grown to accept it. However, I don't think it's completely shut down my fantasies either.
A little off topic, but this is more in repsonse to your comments on my other journal entry about using diapers. But I felt like it was more in line with what I've said in this journal entry.
As much as I don't like the physical ickiness of wetting/messing diapers....I DO like the idea of being embarrassed/teased about it. I think it's down to the idea of why diapers are the most embarrassing part of being a babyfur.
If you ask the average person, I think they would think that wearing a diaper and having to be changed would be the most embarrassing thing about being treated like a baby.
And that's always been fascinating to me is...even in old cartoons and TV shows, where they never mentioned poop directly....there were still always diapers and diaper jokes. I think the idea of babies using diapers was always seen as more "cute" and funny because everyone just accepts that babies can't help it and it's an undeniable part of life. I also think that people tend to find their own bathroom habits embarrassing, so it makes it a much more private topic that is rude or inappropriate to discuss.
But babies CAN'T be embarrassed about it, nor can it be avoided in situations. Sure, people will excuse themselves and discreetly change babies' diapers....but it's still TALKED about more openly.
So for me, it makes it easier for me to fantasize about people humiliating me for wearing/needing diapers like a baby. It can be mixed into the whole idea of being forced to be cute like a baby.
So even though I don't like the messes themselves, I DO like the idea of being made fun of for it. For example, I like a line such as "Aww, does the baby need his diaper changed?"
Another phrase I've always liked is "dirty diaper". Maybe it's because I heard it so much in cartoons as a kid growing up, and it became more of an idea rather making me think of an actual dirty diaper. But for me, the phrase "messy diaper" actually makes me think of a real diaper that's actually nasty, whereas "dirty diaper" makes me think of it in a more cartoony way.....like it's been used, but doesn't really stink or anything.
So hearing a phrase like, "Uh oh, looks like our baby has a dirty diaper" is actually quite appealing to me....especially if it's done in a humiliating way. It once again re-emphasizes the helplessness. But it's all done without the actual fecal matter being there.
It's kind of weird and hard to describe, but my mind is able to make it work.
If I was teased about wearing or wetting, I would die. But a good die. Like a feeling-woosy die.
I also see what you're saying about terms and such. Words are kind of complicated to me. I don't like words that end in "y" in terms of baby words - didn't like them when I was learning to talk either because they were just too babyish and they made me feel patronized. So like... "nappy" is a "bad" word. And as such, "dirty diaper" just sounds... Gross to me. And in the same fashion, I didn't like the term "poor" because my parents would often say "oh, poor baby!" when I was a young child and they didn't think what I was feeling was valid or of significance. So yeah! It's interesting how words and their personal meanings form...
For example, I'm similar to you with a lot of "y" baby words. For example, I don't really like "diapy". It just doesn't sound right to me. Again, I don't mind if other babyfurs use it when they want to talk in a cute way, but in terms of my own fantasies it doesn't really do much for me. I guess it can be kind of cute, so I may have used it in some comics at some point...but for me, a well placed "diaper" is better. The same pops up with a lot of words that feel like the y ending makes them too babyish.
It's funny too how even how "diaper" is said makes a huge difference. If I hear it too often, or see it in too many places in babyfur stuff, it loses its edge. Or, if it's used completely in a medical context, or for old people, or just in terms of practical purpose...it's a dead word.
But...if it's used in the context of what I posted about...a group of (especially attractive) females who know about diapers and are projecting that on to me in a cute way...the word becomes SUPER powerful.
My one exception to the y rule is the word "blankie". There are times when I don't like it....I don't know how to describe it, but it just feels really uncomfortable and off in a certain number of contexts.
BUT...when placed right, it's one of my favorites. The idea of me having a really cute babyish blanket, and being teased for it, like "Aww...you look so cute with your little blankie" is AWESOME. But it's so hard to describe exactly what makes it work for me and what doesn't.
I like the word "blankie" too. I never had a "blankie" as a kid, but as I was growing up I always thought it was super cute when other kids still slept with them through elementary, middle, and even high school. And thumb sucking paired with a blanket is super cute to me. I'm not even sure why...
We're completely on the same page about the blankets. I can't quite put my finger on it. I've had long conversations in the past about how I view blankets and stuffed animals as similar, but also greatly different...both in terms of how actual kids use them, but also in the babyfur context.
I too never had a "blankie" growing up. I also had a bunch of stuffed animals but not a special one. However, right when I was around your age in college, I found the PERFECT teddy bear, and I've slept with him pretty much every night since (about ten years now).
I have bought some babyish blankets since then too, and they are quite nice...but I don't cuddle them in quite the same way as my teddy. It's moreso the idea that I like.
Thumb sucking is fascinating to me, because kind of like wetting/messing...I don't do it, but the IDEA of it is fantastic to me. I don't remember sucking my thumb or a pacifier at all as a kid (though my brother sucked his thumb until he was around 10 years old). And now, I just can't do it without it feeling uncomfortable. The placement feels awkward and the spit is uncomfortable. Pacifiers are much better, but even the physical feeling of using them don't do much for me.
However, the LOOK of me sucking my thumb or a pacifier is WONDERFUL. That's partly why I love including that look in commissions. It just looks so innocent and cute, especially when combined with a stuffed animal or blankie. There's just something endearing about someone getting that sense of peace and security from something so simple.
That's one of the best things about being a babyfur...all of the joy you can get from such a simple thing...and it makes you feel so pure of heart sometimes. You feel like you're getting so much happiness from something so simple and nice feeling, just like when you were a kid. Most people have to resort to drugs, alcohol, partying or food to get those same feelings.
That's why that as much as it can be frustrating being a babyfur...as I've grown older, I kind of feel like I wouldn't trade it for anything. I get so much joy out of the cuddliness and cuteness of it all. It's just unfortunate that I can't share it with most people in my life. On the other hand, I'm grateful to have been born in the internet generation where I'm able to talk to people online about it, meet people in person, order baby items, get babyfur art, etc.
I had a favorite toy growing up, but despite being my favorite, I didn't drag him around everywhere like a lot of kids do with their favorite toys and blankets and such. You can read about him here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/28355621/
You should tell me more about your teddy bear! I love to learn about people's special friends~
Thumb sucking is kind of a complicated concept to me. When I was in the 6th grade (so like 12) I started sucking my thumb for comfort. I was a very depressed and anxious child, and despite never doing it as a baby (though I did have pacifiers) or younger child, I found it comforting. I did, however, have a sippy cup of warm milk every night before bed until I was about seven, and bit my nails well into middle school, so that oral fixation was always there. I'll spare you the gory details, but in 7th grade I developed a bad cutting addiction and ended up in the hospital, and after that I relied solely on thumb sucking to curb my urges, though at points I'd actually wear holes in my thumb because of my teeth. So with that, I eventually got pacifiers from CVS, and at one point opened up to my mom about my weird coping strategy and she - desperate to get me to stop hurting myself - bought me the adult pacifier I wanted (Nuk 5) so I wouldn't ruin my teeth after just getting my braces off. In 8th grade I discovered the furry fandom and found out about babyfurs, and I've been hanging out in the online community ever since. I still like pacifiers a lot and keep a few stashed away in my dorm, though I usually turn to my thumb when I'm feeling poorly because there's less "evidence" that way. I only suck my left thumb for whatever reason. I don't really get urges to do it so much any more, but I did get one when I broke my arm a few months ago. It was the night after the break and my left arm was in a cast - no way I could reach my left thumb. My roommate knows I'm a little but is rather scary so I didn't want to use my pacifier around her - I haven't used them around anybody since early high school. It was a lousy night. I can reach my thumb now if I want to though, at least when my elbow isn't stiff, which it usually is. I had to have surgery and am still regaining my motion. But anyway... There's a huge amount of information you didn't need to know. Lol.
I agree with you about the drugs and partying. I don't do any of the "fun" stuff my peers seem to enjoy, but give me some warm blankets, my plushie, my pacifier, and the right music, and I'll be fine. I'm a simple being in that regard. I just want to find innocence. I, like you, wish it weren't so frowned upon. But also like you, I'm glad I can share how I feel online and when I have a bit of extra money, I can commission work that displays how I feel :) my boy Fix can do the things that I can't do in my day to day because he never has to grow up.
Some babyfurs/furries tend to get so deep into that they almost only socialize with other babyfurs/furries. While I say to each their own, I don't prefer to go that extreme...I still find as many connections as possible with my non-furry friends, and then I find the connections with other babyfurs online and at cons.
I'm happy you had an outlet to help you work through your cutting episode. As long as you what you do is healthy, I think it's good to use whatever you can.
So for my teddy bear history...like I said, growing up I just had a bunch of stuffed animals, and that point they were all pretty much just cuddly toys...I never had much of a special relationship to them.
Then when I discovered ABism and babyfurism in high school, I developed a particular interest for teddy bears. Part of it may have just been my natural interest in bears, like with the Care Bears. But also...teddy bears just seemed so much more cuddly and babyish compared to other stuffed animals. Other animals always seemed to be "cooler". Teddy bears seemed like a particularly babyish type of animal to cuddle, so I really liked the idea of having a teddy bear.
However, all of the ones I tried to get online never seemed to quite hit the spot. I realized later that the problem was I hadn't found one that was the right size, that was cuddly and that was cute.
Then finally...my senior year of college, I finally found the perfect teddy bear. I ordered him from ebay during Christmas Break, and he arrived in the mail in Christmas Eve. I was so happy. This isn't picture of mine, but this is the same model:
https://i.pinimg.com/originals/a0/7.....4215e917e1.jpg
I still remember the moment I first hugged him...he was PERFECT. He was just hte right size...all of the others had been too small for me to cuddle. He was just the right softness and was just squishy enough. Plus I thought he had an adorable face. It made me feel so warm and happy inside when I first hugged him.
Up until that point, I had tried sleeping with a teddy bear and I couldn't because it just didn't feel comfortable. But that Christmas Eve night, I still remember how perfectly cozy, comfortable and happy I was sleeping with him in my arms.
Now, I'm UNCOMFORTABLE unless I'm sleeping with him in my arms.
I named him Toby. A few years later I got another bear of the same model and named the other bear Cody.
Toby has more worn fur, but it makes him feel more genuine. Cody is softer and more squishy, but doesn't have quite the same charm as Toby.
Now I cuddle Toby all of the time. He stays on my couch while I watch TV or surf online. He's always sitting there unless I'm holding him. I always feel good whenever I give him a hug and a cuddle, and it's become a natural instinct of mine to pres him up against my closed mouth (it's kind of like I'm giving him a kiss, but not quite).
And then every night I sleep with him cuddled in my arms. Now I can pretty much take him everywhere.
I never really gave him a backstory of a personality. Maybe it's because I found him as an adult. I still view him differnetly than I would a blankie...he still feels real, and like a friend. But I tend to view him mostly as just being cute, supportive, and always being there to give me a hug...kind of like the Care Bears.
I have a bunch of interesting little stories involving him, but I won't go into the details at the moment.
I agree with the "whatever works, as long as it's healthy" mentality. It took a while to come to terms with my oddity, but I met my goal and found a community where I'm happy as a result, so it's fine.
That is quite the teddy bear. I, too, am uncomfortable sleeping without my koala. Though, with breaking my arm in October and surgery I've become more flexible about my sleeping positions. But I absolutely keep him in the bed and near to my body. He's also a good prop for my arm when I sleep on my non-broken side (my arm doesn't like to hang - it hurts).
It's good to have a backup/secondary bear. I've wanted to get myself a backup koala, but it sort of feels... Wrong. But it would be better to do that now than 50 years down the road when they're hard to find and my current one is in need of fur transplants.
Speaking of which - here's a very lovely blog you might like since you're into teddy bears. This woman repairs/restores worn out stuffed animals and does a beautiful job. If my koala ever needs work done that I don't feel I can do myself, I'm sending him to her.
https://doctorbeth.tumblr.com/
My koala doesn't have a backstory either, but I do remember playing doctor with him and putting band-aids on his fur that I had to cut off when I retrieved him from the basement at 13. You can't really tell that happened, though, which is good. He feels real to me, too. I used to talk to him in my head.
Stuffed animals are the best. I don't know why more adults don't let themselves enjoy plush toys. Or at least... I don't know why they feel the need to keep it so private. It's weird what general society deems to be odd.
Even though Toby and Cody are the same model, they're quite different too, IMO. Toby is always the GOAT, but Cody is a very nice fill in.
That is a neat blog. I'll have to keep it in mind!
Yeah, it is irritating what society doesn't accept. But at least it's gotten better more and more as time goes forward.
I just signed up for Telegram today. I'll note you my name in case you want to add me (and you can tell me yours if you'd like).
I saw a statistic about like 1 in 10 adults admitting to sleeping stuffed animals and such. But where are they? I don't see them at college...
Okay! Looking forward to it! :)
I think it's like you said before...I think most people that do probably keep it hidden out of embarrassment. Most people in my life have no idea that I sleep with a teddy bear.
However, the people I've told have all taken it well.
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So for me, that part really isn't a problem. It's mainly just keeping it all straight in my own head.
I never knew why I or anyone like's infantalism. I guess it's different for everyone. I just like baby stuff because I like it. I was exposed to it at a young age (the dawn of adolescence) because it was taboo and then I just thought I'd conform to that. Maybe it gives me a sense of freedom like being a toddler running around a playground.
It's all I see in diaper art work. All I see are pacifiers in diaper art. Especially erotica. I don't love when people oversexualize baby stuff me personally. (specifically when they add kids into the mix) It's kind of sad. And it's kind of ablest to. I don't dig the whole binky gag thing. I do it sometimes. Maybe in RP.
However I to like the innocence. Like if they where cute as a baby in diapers they might as well be cute as an older person or adult.
But, like you, I also don't like there to be a blatant sexual aspect of it. The interesting thing is that what appeals to me the most sexually is stuff that if you didn't know otherwise, wouldn't appear to be sexual. The helplessness and embarrassment on the surface doesn't have to have a direct sexual nature. It's just to me, it does.
But there are times when I also just want to focus on the cuddly, nice, non-sexual part of it too. It's kind of multi-faceted.