Deep Baby Burr thoughts Part 4: Reconciliation
7 years ago
So after describing my two ends of the spectrum of my babyfur desires (the cuddly side and the forced side), I now want to work to find a way to find peace between them, and to somehow fit them together. I know there are some loose connections between them, but they still feel vastly different.
The first way is fairly conventional, and that’s the idea of using rp. This would entail a bunch of characters/people being the loving, respectful great friends as equals choosing to adopt the dominant role so that I could live out my forced desires.
The issue with this is that they would have to be VERY good a taking on that role. They’d really have to be so good at acting that they convince me that they’re another character, pretty much just like a movie. They’d have to be an expert in switching back and forth between the role. And when in the role, they’d have to be relentless in pursuing that role’s interests...my mind would have to be fully tricked that they are that character.
Otherwise, we’re back to square one...it’s just me feeling like they’re babying me to serve my interests instead of their interests. That’s not to say that the person filling the role doesn’t have get enjoyment out of taking on that role. However, that kind of enjoyment would need to be kept separate from our other interactions.
I actually kind of like this idea for giving me peace of mind with commissions. I haven’t really thought about that before because the art is already imaginary anyway. However, I might feel better to have characters like Michelle and Sonia filling that dominant role if I can clearly point out they are acting and that the act is separate from their actual characters.
Another mechanism that I like is using tropes or cliches to make it clear that what’s happening is separate. For example, my old comics about Digitz dreaming he’s being forcibly babied, or when his wishes go awry. I really liked how those went because it was clear that it wasn’t really happening...it made it feel less dirty to me.
The second big idea is for me to focus on finding a happy medium between the two ends of the spectrum. I’ve already done this a lot, but I want to investigate and organize it a little more.
So starting on the cuddly end of the spectrum:
The first idea has actually happened in my real life. And that has been telling non-AB/babyfurs about me sleeping with my teddy bear. I have told a few female friends in the past, and they thought it was really cute. That feeling felt really good to me inside.
While it’s not really power, in some ways it feels that way because they’re getting enjoyment out of the idea that I’m like a baby in some way. They found it cute and somewhat amusing, but in an endearing way. I even showed them a picture of me sucking my thumb while snuggling my teddy (I told them I was posing), and the enjoyed that as well.
The tricky thing about this one (and really all of these happy mediums) is that that first level of respect can’t go away. It needs to be clear that I’m still respected and valued as an equal, as a part of a team when the context of the babyish act isn’t there. It’s not like it’s something that is thrown out at any moment to diminish who I am as a person.
However, that does not mean it can’t be used in playful teasing. As long as it’s clear that I haven’t lost any respect and value in important sitautions, I like the idea of it being brought up at any point. It’s almost like any other quirk that anyone else could have. I like the idea that they can always view me as cute and enjoy the aspect that I do it while they don’t.
This can be extended a little further to other cute babyish acts, namely thumb sucking or cuddling a blankie.
So the second is basically just my character as an adult who does any babyish thing and other characters ENJOY treating him like a baby....but there really isn’t any full embarrassment. They just find his babyfur activities to be cute and endearing, and they think it’s great taking care of him. But once again, they enjoy playful teasing him because THEY DON’T have those same babyfur desires. That’s where there’s an element of power.
In this case, it’s voluntary...he is engaging in babyish acts, but’s he’s choosing to do so. He still feels some embarrassment about it, but they don’t push it too much and he still actively chooses to be a part of everything.
The next step takes it a little higher...now they are the ones instigating it. Instead of him telling them he wants to be treated like a baby, they tell him they want to treat him like one. He still enjoys it, but now he’s more embarrassed and he’s not making as many choices. For example, maybe he’s not fully comfortable being diapered...but they nudge him into doing it and he goes along with it.
I think the next step is the same thing, but more public. They dress him up as a baby, maybe for a comedic purpose to make it more realistic and embarrassing, and now it’s a lot of them seeing him that way, and once again playfully teasing him.
I like to use this one a lot in ideas, and again, I think it’s because it’s more realistic because you see it in a lot of comedy shows. Dressing up a character like a baby for some gag is funny to people. It is missing some of that nurturing element, but I still think that can be mixed in.
I think the final step is kind of the same thing...but there’s more embarrassment and less concern for his feelings in the moment. I think th best example opis a bunch of young girls forcing a little brother to being a baby when playing house. They want it so much that they’ll push him into it...but it’s still separate from other usual interactions. It’s different from RP because they do have the real desire to baby him, they’re not acting. But again, it misses that nurturing aspect.
I really like all five of these. And what’s great is that I think all five can be done WITHOUT him losing any standing f or respect from them...he’s still a part of the team, and outside of the babying context they view him jus as normally as in any other.
There are also some other details that can be changed that tame the excitement a little...makes it feel more cuddly and less embarrassing.
Th first is to have multiple characters being babied at the same time. That makes it somewhat less embarrassing because you’re in it together with someone.
The other for me is changing genders. I don’t know what it is, but when it’s a male doing the babying or a female being babied, it just doesn’t feel quite as intense to me...both with the good parts and the bad parts.
I guess male on male can be, especially if the dominant male is particularly strong or intimidating. But even then, it’s always felt to me more like he’s enjoying embarrassing the other just for the sake of embarrassment...it wouldn’t have to be baby related. Females tend of more naturally have that innate maternal instinct as well as an overall deeper knowledge and experience with taking care of babies.
I know that plays into gender roles, which outside of the babyfur context I d9 whatever I can to resist. But in this context, I can’t change how it makes me feel.
So all together, these four journals kind of outline my biggest interests in the babyfur community. The sense of belonging/value the cuddliness or being an actual cub, the excitement/embarrassment of being forced into being treated like a baby, and the happy medium of being babied ass an adult in at tamer and more innocent way.
It makes me feel really good typing this out and sharing it, especially if I can refer back to it when I get future commissions. Hopefully it explains to others all of my tastes and how they fit together. I feel better now having this all organized and it makes me feel less bothered by it...I’m more at peace.
To help me flesh out these feelings even more, I think I’m going to be getting a story from
horatiohusky I think it will involve the Care Bears and hopefully all four elements that I’ve discussed in these four journals. So hopefully that will be something very nice to look forward to!
The first way is fairly conventional, and that’s the idea of using rp. This would entail a bunch of characters/people being the loving, respectful great friends as equals choosing to adopt the dominant role so that I could live out my forced desires.
The issue with this is that they would have to be VERY good a taking on that role. They’d really have to be so good at acting that they convince me that they’re another character, pretty much just like a movie. They’d have to be an expert in switching back and forth between the role. And when in the role, they’d have to be relentless in pursuing that role’s interests...my mind would have to be fully tricked that they are that character.
Otherwise, we’re back to square one...it’s just me feeling like they’re babying me to serve my interests instead of their interests. That’s not to say that the person filling the role doesn’t have get enjoyment out of taking on that role. However, that kind of enjoyment would need to be kept separate from our other interactions.
I actually kind of like this idea for giving me peace of mind with commissions. I haven’t really thought about that before because the art is already imaginary anyway. However, I might feel better to have characters like Michelle and Sonia filling that dominant role if I can clearly point out they are acting and that the act is separate from their actual characters.
Another mechanism that I like is using tropes or cliches to make it clear that what’s happening is separate. For example, my old comics about Digitz dreaming he’s being forcibly babied, or when his wishes go awry. I really liked how those went because it was clear that it wasn’t really happening...it made it feel less dirty to me.
The second big idea is for me to focus on finding a happy medium between the two ends of the spectrum. I’ve already done this a lot, but I want to investigate and organize it a little more.
So starting on the cuddly end of the spectrum:
The first idea has actually happened in my real life. And that has been telling non-AB/babyfurs about me sleeping with my teddy bear. I have told a few female friends in the past, and they thought it was really cute. That feeling felt really good to me inside.
While it’s not really power, in some ways it feels that way because they’re getting enjoyment out of the idea that I’m like a baby in some way. They found it cute and somewhat amusing, but in an endearing way. I even showed them a picture of me sucking my thumb while snuggling my teddy (I told them I was posing), and the enjoyed that as well.
The tricky thing about this one (and really all of these happy mediums) is that that first level of respect can’t go away. It needs to be clear that I’m still respected and valued as an equal, as a part of a team when the context of the babyish act isn’t there. It’s not like it’s something that is thrown out at any moment to diminish who I am as a person.
However, that does not mean it can’t be used in playful teasing. As long as it’s clear that I haven’t lost any respect and value in important sitautions, I like the idea of it being brought up at any point. It’s almost like any other quirk that anyone else could have. I like the idea that they can always view me as cute and enjoy the aspect that I do it while they don’t.
This can be extended a little further to other cute babyish acts, namely thumb sucking or cuddling a blankie.
So the second is basically just my character as an adult who does any babyish thing and other characters ENJOY treating him like a baby....but there really isn’t any full embarrassment. They just find his babyfur activities to be cute and endearing, and they think it’s great taking care of him. But once again, they enjoy playful teasing him because THEY DON’T have those same babyfur desires. That’s where there’s an element of power.
In this case, it’s voluntary...he is engaging in babyish acts, but’s he’s choosing to do so. He still feels some embarrassment about it, but they don’t push it too much and he still actively chooses to be a part of everything.
The next step takes it a little higher...now they are the ones instigating it. Instead of him telling them he wants to be treated like a baby, they tell him they want to treat him like one. He still enjoys it, but now he’s more embarrassed and he’s not making as many choices. For example, maybe he’s not fully comfortable being diapered...but they nudge him into doing it and he goes along with it.
I think the next step is the same thing, but more public. They dress him up as a baby, maybe for a comedic purpose to make it more realistic and embarrassing, and now it’s a lot of them seeing him that way, and once again playfully teasing him.
I like to use this one a lot in ideas, and again, I think it’s because it’s more realistic because you see it in a lot of comedy shows. Dressing up a character like a baby for some gag is funny to people. It is missing some of that nurturing element, but I still think that can be mixed in.
I think the final step is kind of the same thing...but there’s more embarrassment and less concern for his feelings in the moment. I think th best example opis a bunch of young girls forcing a little brother to being a baby when playing house. They want it so much that they’ll push him into it...but it’s still separate from other usual interactions. It’s different from RP because they do have the real desire to baby him, they’re not acting. But again, it misses that nurturing aspect.
I really like all five of these. And what’s great is that I think all five can be done WITHOUT him losing any standing f or respect from them...he’s still a part of the team, and outside of the babying context they view him jus as normally as in any other.
There are also some other details that can be changed that tame the excitement a little...makes it feel more cuddly and less embarrassing.
Th first is to have multiple characters being babied at the same time. That makes it somewhat less embarrassing because you’re in it together with someone.
The other for me is changing genders. I don’t know what it is, but when it’s a male doing the babying or a female being babied, it just doesn’t feel quite as intense to me...both with the good parts and the bad parts.
I guess male on male can be, especially if the dominant male is particularly strong or intimidating. But even then, it’s always felt to me more like he’s enjoying embarrassing the other just for the sake of embarrassment...it wouldn’t have to be baby related. Females tend of more naturally have that innate maternal instinct as well as an overall deeper knowledge and experience with taking care of babies.
I know that plays into gender roles, which outside of the babyfur context I d9 whatever I can to resist. But in this context, I can’t change how it makes me feel.
So all together, these four journals kind of outline my biggest interests in the babyfur community. The sense of belonging/value the cuddliness or being an actual cub, the excitement/embarrassment of being forced into being treated like a baby, and the happy medium of being babied ass an adult in at tamer and more innocent way.
It makes me feel really good typing this out and sharing it, especially if I can refer back to it when I get future commissions. Hopefully it explains to others all of my tastes and how they fit together. I feel better now having this all organized and it makes me feel less bothered by it...I’m more at peace.
To help me flesh out these feelings even more, I think I’m going to be getting a story from

Like I said, I always enjoy it when female friends think I’m cute for doing it. But I had one male friend (who I think is very attractive) also tell me it’s cute, and that made me feel very happy. I also have a friend who poked a little fun at me about it, and another who still sleeps with his and we had a great connection about it.
So I like how I’ve been able to be more open about it.
I also got a few Care Bears from the 2007 series too. Funshine Bear, Grumpy Bear (he was the hardest to find. I only saw one at a Padima store, and it's the one in my collection), Oopsy Bear, and Bedtime Bear.
I also have a Funshine Bear in beach wear that I won in a crane machine while visiting in Arizona in 2011. Won him on the second try.
But my latest find was this summer when I found a Build-A-Bear version of Tender Heart Bear at my nearby Salvation Army. He's a bit bigger that the other Care Bears, and because of that, Tender Heart sleeps with me every night now.
I don’t like the new bears as much. Not that there’s anything wrong with the characters...it’s just they remind me of the new versions of the show, which I don’t like much at all.
However, I don’t mind getting new versions of the old Bears, as long as they remind me of the old versions of the cartoon.
I didn’t know you had such a big collection, though! I didn’t know you liked the Care Bears so much. That’s really cool to hear! I always like it when fellow babyfurs enjoy the Care Bears.
Making the journals has really helped me a lot. I feel much more at peace mentally about all of it after having written out my thoughts, and it felt good to share them. It feels even better knowing some people read them!