My mom had me watch a Lisa Ling cover story(?) on furries with her and now I have two suit ideas in mind and plan to make her a character. But I don't want to keep using this account. I don't wanna come back xux

I can't make friends here.
I struggle to even maintain conversations online, let alone socialize in general.
Everyone who talks to me fades away within the week and never returns again.
I don't understand Twitter or Discord, I'm not good in group chats.
I don't have transportation to cons and can't talk well in group situations.

How the heck can I be a part of a such a social community?
It's impossible for me to talk to anyone here x-x
It's impossible for me to make friends online, and I don't know how to do it irl either.
I felt unwelcome and uncomfortable in both local communities I had access to.
And no one can see me anywhere I go xwx
I don't know what to do.