2018 was a very hard year for me, prolly one of the hardest years that i can remember. It very much was a year of loss.

We lost our family dog of 16 years *old age and a bone degeneration disease
I lost my biological father to suicide, he had stage 4 cancer and didnt want to rot away.
i lost my step sister in-law to suicide, she had been fighting depression for a long time
My partner lost his father near the last half of the year, that one really hit home for me.
my housemate Naketa lost a kidney to cancer and now is undergoing chemo to help fight other things
My housemate Calafin almost lost his life due to a rare disease called "Guillain-Barre Syndrome". He will be recovering for years from that battle.
My mother had to go to the hospital with some chest pain, they found 4 masses in her left lung,, "still not sure whats going to happen there"
My sister had a massive heart attack. (im amazed she didnt die, it was pretty bad) Me and my sister dont really see eye to eye but i am glad she is still alive..

The issues of all that had been happening and working a day job that was very septic job caused me to basically withdraw from nearly everyone and everything i knew and cared about, even from running a business properly.
(basically shutting it down, trying to work on stuff without having panic attacks and avoiding or not even talking to people) A local friend stepped in and started coming over, learning the trade on how to make things so he could help out and make some extra cash. I found when i have someone in the shop with me i can actually function at a workable level. Im still trying to get back into the swing of things, reaching out to people to see if they want their commissions finished or offer refunds. Nobody deserves to wait like my customers have and i sincerely apologize for what ive put you through. I have no excuse for my actions and with the start of the new year i am doing all i can to try to recitfy what has happened.

There were alot of good things that also happened throughout 2018 so it was not all bad but i will save that for the next journal:)

The reason for this journal was to let everyone know how things were and where we stand as of now.

At this point Scaleworx is shut down. Until ALL the commissions, prototype ideas and the things that need to be finished for our customers and sponsors no quotes will be given, no orders will be taken. We have to make things right for those who are waiting now before we can start fresh...
Scaleworx Creations has had a great run this past 9 years and until we can make things right there is no way that we can make this business any better. I dont want to be know as the one who took peoples money and never delivered anything, to be one who make people wait years on end, I would not like it if someone did it to me (i finally got a commission that was 3 years in a waiting list) and i damn will dont like doing it to those who put their trust in me to bring their amazing creations to life.
Once i can get things done, get all the parts of what needs to be taken care of completed then and only then i will see who wants to go with me and see if we can bring Scaleworx Creations back to life.

*bows low*