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6 years ago
Skip to the words "Oingo Boingo Whoopsy Knickers" if you want to know what's going on without the rant. >w<
Ok, my social anxiety will officially be an endemic thing if I don't get this information out and explain this somewhere, so might as well just blurt it out. Hey again all! Sorry for the incredibly long time gone. I will have an explanation for that in just a bit, and it all happened in a bit of a flash and that's largely why I didn't really have time to fill everyone in or keep them in the loop, so sorry about that.
Now first, despite absolutely everything I'm about to say, I really genuinely hope you all had a good time over christmas, and a good new year so far. I don't bring my personal life or thoughts into these much so you're just gonna have to take a lot of this at my word, but 2018 was a washout year for me. A lot of bad things happened to people I knew and/or cared a lot about, a lot of idiots got away with horrible things they did scot free. Even I was a humongous asshole at times I admit, and the whole entire thing seemed to prove we're living in the mirror universe out of star trek. So I hope that christmas and this new year are providing a lot of you a much needed respite and you had fun with your families and got some cool presents.
You know what I got as my christmas present this year? An eviction notice. -_-
Now if I were to name said real estate and house owner, I imagine they'd absolutely flip at it being referred to that way... But I'm going to keep calling it an eviction notice because that's what it bloody was! I broke no rules, I did no damage to the house, I did nothing to warrant an eviction. I just got chucked out because the owner said "Hey I wanna move back in without any warning so just get out. I'll give you two months." Two months starting in december. You know, december? When all the real estates go away on holiday, effectively turning 2 months notice into under 1 month? You fucking imbecile?! >:(
Cap the year off with that. Me searching desperately for a new place, making sure all my files and stuff were safe, getting rid of practically everything in the house that wasn't needed, wondering if I was going to have to lose my pets, stressing me to my absolute breaking point at one of the worst times of the year to do all this stuff... and you can probably see why the christmas cat didn't feel like coming to the party this year.
But that's only half the reason why I've been gone this long. I've been gone because when I did get a small miracle and finally find a place and move in and at last get some much needed peace of mind... Optus, my ISP, the bastard son of comcast and shiva, saw fit to cut us off at the new place for over a month and a half. For over A MONTH AND A HALF they were constantly pushing back dates with no explanation of why I wasn't receiving internet, why it was taking so long to get on, or why nothing was being done to fix it. With phone calls usually resulting in me getting put on hold for eternity and hung up on, or just hung up on without any reason.
My parents have been with optus for longer then I was alive. I've personally been with them about 10 years. And they have done something like this every time I've moved. I don't know how they ever got down from the branches of trees long enough to function as a company, and this was the last straw. I've kicked them to the curve and I hope I never have to deal with them again.
I won't tell you exactly who I've gone with instead just yet, some of you know, but trust me when I say they blew optus out of the water from second one and have been nothing but a joy to work with! :3 The one downside remaining now is I'm sadly stuck on wi-fi at the new place, (no good way to wire things up without ripping half the house apart,) but at least I do have proper internet again.
So yeah, all of this has left me in a bit of a PTSD state where I'm not going to feel safe living in my own home for a while, and I'm still cutting down on what furniture and stuff I have so that if I need to move again in a few months, I can. I'd really like to be able to say I'm back to normal. But things are sadly going to be far from back to normal for a long time.
Oingo Boingo Whoopsy Knickers! :P
So where does that leave everything? Well I'd say I'm about $3000 out of pocket. :S Yeah, adding up bond, moving fees and the extra I had to spend to keep my phone on while optus screwed us round, and I'd say I might even be a bit over that. So there goes the fursuit fund! Again! >~< That means...
1: I'm afraid I've had to cancel all my subscriptions/patreons, and it's probably gonna be that way for a while. At first I did that just cause I honestly didn't know when I'd be online again. But the more I debate it with myself, I'm sorry all. I'm going to have to leave them for a while until I can build my bank up again. (Ps If there's any discord servers or places I shouldn't be anymore, please let me know and I'll duck out.)
2: I'm not going to be thinking about getting any commissions for a while either. No matter how much I might be desiring a few right now... >:3 No, have to hold back. Same reason, obviously.
3: No fursuits. (And trust me, this is harder then most of you realize right now. >w<) I made a lot of jabs to people last year that I had enough for fursuits now and I'd consider bringing some to life, but that is definitely on hold like I mentioned above. And I say again cause it feels like this sort of thing happens every time I plan for one. >~< (If any of you guys know a maker who will make just a bodysuit individually, it'd be greatly appreciated please. I have a partial I'd really like to debut but I told myself I'd get a bodysuit first. So that's a maybe depending on price range.)
And that's about it. I'm not gonna get into discussing where I'm at work-wise yet, cause that'll fill up a whole other journal. I'll get uploaded what I can, and get back to everyone I haven't about theirs asap. About the only thing I can add here is, just... don't be expecting a late "big christmas picture" or "Night of the xmas cats" this year. And probably any year after this, either. My latest avatar's not nick for a reason, and I'll explain better another time, but all that bullshit that happened... it was the last straw for a lot of things for me. >~<
I'm sorry to anyone who didn't know what was going on or why I went dark, and I'll try to slowly catch up on pictures and pms I missed while I was gone. It's been a rough few months, and I'll try my best to make it up to everyone.
Ok, my social anxiety will officially be an endemic thing if I don't get this information out and explain this somewhere, so might as well just blurt it out. Hey again all! Sorry for the incredibly long time gone. I will have an explanation for that in just a bit, and it all happened in a bit of a flash and that's largely why I didn't really have time to fill everyone in or keep them in the loop, so sorry about that.
Now first, despite absolutely everything I'm about to say, I really genuinely hope you all had a good time over christmas, and a good new year so far. I don't bring my personal life or thoughts into these much so you're just gonna have to take a lot of this at my word, but 2018 was a washout year for me. A lot of bad things happened to people I knew and/or cared a lot about, a lot of idiots got away with horrible things they did scot free. Even I was a humongous asshole at times I admit, and the whole entire thing seemed to prove we're living in the mirror universe out of star trek. So I hope that christmas and this new year are providing a lot of you a much needed respite and you had fun with your families and got some cool presents.
You know what I got as my christmas present this year? An eviction notice. -_-
Now if I were to name said real estate and house owner, I imagine they'd absolutely flip at it being referred to that way... But I'm going to keep calling it an eviction notice because that's what it bloody was! I broke no rules, I did no damage to the house, I did nothing to warrant an eviction. I just got chucked out because the owner said "Hey I wanna move back in without any warning so just get out. I'll give you two months." Two months starting in december. You know, december? When all the real estates go away on holiday, effectively turning 2 months notice into under 1 month? You fucking imbecile?! >:(
Cap the year off with that. Me searching desperately for a new place, making sure all my files and stuff were safe, getting rid of practically everything in the house that wasn't needed, wondering if I was going to have to lose my pets, stressing me to my absolute breaking point at one of the worst times of the year to do all this stuff... and you can probably see why the christmas cat didn't feel like coming to the party this year.
But that's only half the reason why I've been gone this long. I've been gone because when I did get a small miracle and finally find a place and move in and at last get some much needed peace of mind... Optus, my ISP, the bastard son of comcast and shiva, saw fit to cut us off at the new place for over a month and a half. For over A MONTH AND A HALF they were constantly pushing back dates with no explanation of why I wasn't receiving internet, why it was taking so long to get on, or why nothing was being done to fix it. With phone calls usually resulting in me getting put on hold for eternity and hung up on, or just hung up on without any reason.
My parents have been with optus for longer then I was alive. I've personally been with them about 10 years. And they have done something like this every time I've moved. I don't know how they ever got down from the branches of trees long enough to function as a company, and this was the last straw. I've kicked them to the curve and I hope I never have to deal with them again.
I won't tell you exactly who I've gone with instead just yet, some of you know, but trust me when I say they blew optus out of the water from second one and have been nothing but a joy to work with! :3 The one downside remaining now is I'm sadly stuck on wi-fi at the new place, (no good way to wire things up without ripping half the house apart,) but at least I do have proper internet again.
So yeah, all of this has left me in a bit of a PTSD state where I'm not going to feel safe living in my own home for a while, and I'm still cutting down on what furniture and stuff I have so that if I need to move again in a few months, I can. I'd really like to be able to say I'm back to normal. But things are sadly going to be far from back to normal for a long time.
Oingo Boingo Whoopsy Knickers! :P
So where does that leave everything? Well I'd say I'm about $3000 out of pocket. :S Yeah, adding up bond, moving fees and the extra I had to spend to keep my phone on while optus screwed us round, and I'd say I might even be a bit over that. So there goes the fursuit fund! Again! >~< That means...
1: I'm afraid I've had to cancel all my subscriptions/patreons, and it's probably gonna be that way for a while. At first I did that just cause I honestly didn't know when I'd be online again. But the more I debate it with myself, I'm sorry all. I'm going to have to leave them for a while until I can build my bank up again. (Ps If there's any discord servers or places I shouldn't be anymore, please let me know and I'll duck out.)
2: I'm not going to be thinking about getting any commissions for a while either. No matter how much I might be desiring a few right now... >:3 No, have to hold back. Same reason, obviously.
3: No fursuits. (And trust me, this is harder then most of you realize right now. >w<) I made a lot of jabs to people last year that I had enough for fursuits now and I'd consider bringing some to life, but that is definitely on hold like I mentioned above. And I say again cause it feels like this sort of thing happens every time I plan for one. >~< (If any of you guys know a maker who will make just a bodysuit individually, it'd be greatly appreciated please. I have a partial I'd really like to debut but I told myself I'd get a bodysuit first. So that's a maybe depending on price range.)
And that's about it. I'm not gonna get into discussing where I'm at work-wise yet, cause that'll fill up a whole other journal. I'll get uploaded what I can, and get back to everyone I haven't about theirs asap. About the only thing I can add here is, just... don't be expecting a late "big christmas picture" or "Night of the xmas cats" this year. And probably any year after this, either. My latest avatar's not nick for a reason, and I'll explain better another time, but all that bullshit that happened... it was the last straw for a lot of things for me. >~<
I'm sorry to anyone who didn't know what was going on or why I went dark, and I'll try to slowly catch up on pictures and pms I missed while I was gone. It's been a rough few months, and I'll try my best to make it up to everyone.
As I've said privately to you but will make clear here anyway, you have been missed :D And don't stress too much over breaks! Some people vanish for years or more with no warning or explanation. This was only two months and you tell us why c:
Despite everything I truly hope this year improves for you. You deserve to have a break from all of the stress.
Carp like this tends to happen all at once... Though as the anger and tears subside, you'll be laughing and say it was not all that bad. Here's hoping 2019 is better than the prior.
No stress about having to take a break; just glad to know you're still alive and around n.=.n you've been missed mate!