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6 years ago
Figured I should give a little update to let people know where I'm at!
I've got 3 people left to complete work for and after that my commission slots are clear. I've been taking work pretty sparsely and haven't done any real openings yet this year, but I will be taking on new work this month. I'm going to continue taking on small batches on an artist choice basis for now, as I feel that's in my best interest in terms of where I'm at right now.
I had an unexpectedly really rough start to the year that hit me through december into early february. My mental health hit an all time low, and although I don't want to go into too much detail at the risk of being tmi, the anxiety was debilitating and even bad enough I had thought I was having a heart attack and got hit with a very large medical bill for nothing and could barely eat or function for a long while after I was so terrified and rattled. It's taken me a long time to recover, but taking cbd has been pretty life changing for me and anxiety doesn't have such an iron grip on my every waking minute. It's a struggle and it did effect my productivity greatly. I feel bad for the people I may have disappointed in that time period who were waiting on work from me and I was afraid of being overly transparent as to why, but it was genuinely one of the hardest periods of my life in terms of my mental health.
It's something I was debating on even mentioning, as I worry it's something people see as shameful, but it also feels wrong to have people waiting on you without giving any indication as to what the hold up is beyond an apology for being slow. I don't say this as an excuse, just a reason, and I'm going to continue altering the ways I take on work to minimize any potential wait or disappointment as I continue trying to grapple with my mental health.
All that said though, I am feeling much better and hoping taking cbd continues to be such an amazing blessing for me, as I went from 24/7 heart palpitations and several anxiety attacks in january to almost nothing all through february. It's not 100%, but it is a dramatic change, and I'm happy to be restoring my productivity and functioning.
I thank you all as always for your support and patience, and I look forward to taking on more new work soon! I'll put up a journal sometime later this month to take on prompts, or I'll leave people the option of referring me to their old comment made on my November journal last year if you're still interested in getting the same prompt. I'll likely take on small batches of less than 5 at a time, and see how it goes! I may take on some prompts for a scene commission or two too.
I've got 3 people left to complete work for and after that my commission slots are clear. I've been taking work pretty sparsely and haven't done any real openings yet this year, but I will be taking on new work this month. I'm going to continue taking on small batches on an artist choice basis for now, as I feel that's in my best interest in terms of where I'm at right now.
I had an unexpectedly really rough start to the year that hit me through december into early february. My mental health hit an all time low, and although I don't want to go into too much detail at the risk of being tmi, the anxiety was debilitating and even bad enough I had thought I was having a heart attack and got hit with a very large medical bill for nothing and could barely eat or function for a long while after I was so terrified and rattled. It's taken me a long time to recover, but taking cbd has been pretty life changing for me and anxiety doesn't have such an iron grip on my every waking minute. It's a struggle and it did effect my productivity greatly. I feel bad for the people I may have disappointed in that time period who were waiting on work from me and I was afraid of being overly transparent as to why, but it was genuinely one of the hardest periods of my life in terms of my mental health.
It's something I was debating on even mentioning, as I worry it's something people see as shameful, but it also feels wrong to have people waiting on you without giving any indication as to what the hold up is beyond an apology for being slow. I don't say this as an excuse, just a reason, and I'm going to continue altering the ways I take on work to minimize any potential wait or disappointment as I continue trying to grapple with my mental health.
All that said though, I am feeling much better and hoping taking cbd continues to be such an amazing blessing for me, as I went from 24/7 heart palpitations and several anxiety attacks in january to almost nothing all through february. It's not 100%, but it is a dramatic change, and I'm happy to be restoring my productivity and functioning.
I thank you all as always for your support and patience, and I look forward to taking on more new work soon! I'll put up a journal sometime later this month to take on prompts, or I'll leave people the option of referring me to their old comment made on my November journal last year if you're still interested in getting the same prompt. I'll likely take on small batches of less than 5 at a time, and see how it goes! I may take on some prompts for a scene commission or two too.
Anxiety is such a difficult thing to work through and I know how crippling it can be sometimes.
I look forward in continuing to support you and seeing more of your art <3
Remember to take baby steps and don't feel ashamed if you need to take breaks.
It's really exciting to hear you are considering taking work again, me and a friend were actually just talking about getting something the other day that would be perfect in your style, so thanks for the chance whenever you open!!
I am glad to see that you are doing better!
Do take your time and I look forward to when you're ready to take on new work. I'd like a new journal entry so I can repost my prompt because I have revamped my character reference but you can also refer to the old comment I posted in your journal from November and I can just send you the revamped ref if I get picked ^^
Always remember everything is going to be okay!
I'm sure your commissioners will be understanding when you're so honest about your situation :)
There's a bunch of really nice beginner strains that don't have as much thc and higher cbd content too. Though the best strain I've tried for anxiety and depression has been Sour Tsunami. I think it's seasonal though but I HIGHLY recommend it! HarleTsu, Harlequin, and ACDC are really good too but Sour Tsunami has been the one that has the best leveling effect without a head high.
Sorry also if you know most of this already too, just thought I'd share since it's helped me a lot too! <3
I certainly agree, CBD can be such a big help, in so many ways. I use cannabis to help with pain as well, and I glad that it helps lessen my need for opiate type medications.
May you continue to see improvements! Be well! 😊
Looking forward to getting a slot from you, you work is always so beautiful.