So I dunno what to furry world thinks of me... probably not good lol

I have done things that I am so so not proud of, but also I gotta say I have grown A LOT as a human being...
Uhm, you gotta understand my past to understand how I was/am a very broken being, but not looking for pity.

STORY TIME~!

My birth mother gave me up because she was far too hard into drugs, so I ended up with an Auntie and her kids. I was left unattended one-time n fell out of the 2nd-floor window at age 3, Child services took me from my aunt and put me into foster care, where my foster family who took care of me beat me, raped me, abused me, emotionally and mentally tor me apart. Sadly I was trapped there till I was 21, then my First BF took me away from there, Lived with him for 6 months till he couldn't handle my unstable mental health... Then I lived with a friend, I ended up preggy n had his kid. I didn't like him THAT much, but I felt I had to stay with him cause of the baby.... so we stayed together for 8 Yrs. Moved from my home town to a larger city and have lived in the same shit hole apartment for years.

I became so entangled and confused and unsure about what I was doing or where my life was going. I just felt so trapped that I just finally said I had enough. I had found myself wanting to leave my relationship and find something out there in the world that could help me complete myself.... And it to happen at the same time, A friend of my Ex was staying with us and OMG I hit face first in love with him. He was intelligent, quick thinking, handsome and I was just so impressed with his dominant, Alpha like aura around him.

We got along, he wasn't really looking for a Girlfriend at the time cause he was recently divorced. he was alot closer to my generation so we had a lot in common and we shared so many of the same forms of humor and views. Though I wasn't sure at the time what the thought about me..being a furry.

Months go by and we finally decided to talk abit about the idea of a relationship. I wasnt looking for one myself, but something told me to go with it. So from then onward we've been "Mates" . He lets me be myself for the most part, but i gotta admit he is trying to change the naughty side of me.. I'll talk about that another time.

Now it has been nearly 3 Yrs with this guy and it has been such a roller coaster for me cause I am adjusting to being "domesticated" and learning just how a real relationship works and yes, i still see my son.

My son is going to be turning 10 in April, He has a heart of gold, a brilliant mind and he accepts his mom for who she is despite the many...many..many.. drawbacks.

So much off my hsoulders as I begin a new direction, I want to grow more as an inidvidual and I wanna grow more as a mother and a Mate.

I'll be posting more aobut my mental illness, my views on things and myabe make a youtube channel where I talk about things too... we shall see