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Canada So far
6 years ago
(¯`·._.·(¯`·._.· One with the Hive ·._.·´¯)·._.·´¯) Hey just want to make a quick journal here about my visit to Canada so far.
so for those that do not know. I have moved to Canada on a 2 year working/Holiday Visa.
The goal was to come here and start fresh, see if i like it enough to apply for residency here after the 2 year period. and eventually become a Canadian citizen.
The other goal i had was to get closer to the things i love. Within North America is the core of those things i love, the Furry Community, another reason i have come here.
Become more distinguished as an artist, as being a commissioner was becoming an expensive Hobby.
With barely any knowledge or experience in drawing for a long time, I drew a few things here and there. I have dove straight down the maw of the abyss. You will notice the art going from commissioned artists to Ideas that actually now come from my hands to it actually.
For years i doubted myself and my ability to draw. Tracing dragon Ball Z Art all the time that's about all i ever did art wise. All this time spent in Australia never knowing what i wanted to do led me to taking a leap into outer space so to speak. From Australian Commissioner, to Canadian Artist. My dream has been met. I have achieved what i set out to do. However i did take art classes when i was younger for which i am grateful for now, never realizing that i do love something, expressing myself through Digital Monster Art.
Life right now for me however is very tough...
Being this so called "Artist" I've wanted to be my whole life ended up being a whole lot tougher than i had imagined
Earning a living off drawing alone is not enough for me right now which means i have a job i am working 30+ hours in. I'm doing Canada proud in the workforce that's for sure! The lifestyle, environment, reactions people have to my behaviors here has me in shocked and panicked mode almost all the time. I have tremendous anxiety, stops me from communicating to almost anyone as i linger in an alien world. We may speak the same Language but you can definitely tell just by inner feeling alone you are in a very different place.
Sorting work out has been especially hard. particularly when in comes to transport systems. One of the Major reasons i just don't have a grip on Canada yet.
I've quickly slipped back into owing situations that has taken away a bit of my happiness away.
As i draw though, i just have this ebbing thought in my head to just keep going, try and be positive and see if i can do this...I've wanted this since forever. I've busted my ass for this opportunity and i'm messing it up
I've been trying very hard to get better at what i now do. And become a decent artist, Finally able to work on the things i love, like the Bal'kar, The Furry community, pup community.
The struggles I've had here have already prevented me from going to see British Colombia because of lack of funds. I have had huge disconnections all around me of late and I apologize that i haven't been around as i once was. Work is hard on all of us here.
I have not yet decided if i want to stay here or come back to Australia at the moment. Right now I'm in limbo, Torn between the two. I'm not sure if its me just looking in all the wrong places. but i am still hopeful i will be able to see a whole bunch more of you all when i come to Fur-Eh up in Edmonton in June!
The people I'm with here in Canada are super nice and incredibly hospitable. I just need to get over my own thoughts of thinking I'm ruining everything all the time!
I hate my anxiety. I've always been an introvert so again, the change is a bit shocking for me.
Anywho! thats enough outta me!
Expect to see more art soon! and thanks for those very few that visit me on my Artstreams. I'm not good at announcing them.
If you do want to hear me announce you can always follow my art announcements on telegram. https://t.me/Neoxart
so for those that do not know. I have moved to Canada on a 2 year working/Holiday Visa.
The goal was to come here and start fresh, see if i like it enough to apply for residency here after the 2 year period. and eventually become a Canadian citizen.
The other goal i had was to get closer to the things i love. Within North America is the core of those things i love, the Furry Community, another reason i have come here.
Become more distinguished as an artist, as being a commissioner was becoming an expensive Hobby.
With barely any knowledge or experience in drawing for a long time, I drew a few things here and there. I have dove straight down the maw of the abyss. You will notice the art going from commissioned artists to Ideas that actually now come from my hands to it actually.
For years i doubted myself and my ability to draw. Tracing dragon Ball Z Art all the time that's about all i ever did art wise. All this time spent in Australia never knowing what i wanted to do led me to taking a leap into outer space so to speak. From Australian Commissioner, to Canadian Artist. My dream has been met. I have achieved what i set out to do. However i did take art classes when i was younger for which i am grateful for now, never realizing that i do love something, expressing myself through Digital Monster Art.
Life right now for me however is very tough...
Being this so called "Artist" I've wanted to be my whole life ended up being a whole lot tougher than i had imagined
Earning a living off drawing alone is not enough for me right now which means i have a job i am working 30+ hours in. I'm doing Canada proud in the workforce that's for sure! The lifestyle, environment, reactions people have to my behaviors here has me in shocked and panicked mode almost all the time. I have tremendous anxiety, stops me from communicating to almost anyone as i linger in an alien world. We may speak the same Language but you can definitely tell just by inner feeling alone you are in a very different place.
Sorting work out has been especially hard. particularly when in comes to transport systems. One of the Major reasons i just don't have a grip on Canada yet.
I've quickly slipped back into owing situations that has taken away a bit of my happiness away.
As i draw though, i just have this ebbing thought in my head to just keep going, try and be positive and see if i can do this...I've wanted this since forever. I've busted my ass for this opportunity and i'm messing it up
I've been trying very hard to get better at what i now do. And become a decent artist, Finally able to work on the things i love, like the Bal'kar, The Furry community, pup community.
The struggles I've had here have already prevented me from going to see British Colombia because of lack of funds. I have had huge disconnections all around me of late and I apologize that i haven't been around as i once was. Work is hard on all of us here.
I have not yet decided if i want to stay here or come back to Australia at the moment. Right now I'm in limbo, Torn between the two. I'm not sure if its me just looking in all the wrong places. but i am still hopeful i will be able to see a whole bunch more of you all when i come to Fur-Eh up in Edmonton in June!
The people I'm with here in Canada are super nice and incredibly hospitable. I just need to get over my own thoughts of thinking I'm ruining everything all the time!
I hate my anxiety. I've always been an introvert so again, the change is a bit shocking for me.
Anywho! thats enough outta me!
Expect to see more art soon! and thanks for those very few that visit me on my Artstreams. I'm not good at announcing them.
If you do want to hear me announce you can always follow my art announcements on telegram. https://t.me/Neoxart
Shirewolf System
~benjaminsmaridge
Im proud to be part of your mental net Neox, i hope i can continue to support you, and get more art from you in the future. We are Bal'Kar. We are One.
Astra Ether
~nakourou
Best of luck with your visa in Canada! Consider getting an other work visa after your first one before you start applying for a more permanent visa, as the delays to get them are extremely slooowww
