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SO I Got A C-note Says...
6 years ago
There is no gift more precious or rare in this world than true love. Treasure those who share it with you.
I apologize ahead of time for the disjointed nature of this journal, lovely reader. I'm afraid I'm rather tired in a bit of pain as is the usual lately and having difficulty maintaining clarity of thought and cohesion, so this is going to be a bit of a rattle...
Years ago when I was working towards a career in counseling, a professor of mine had a very profound observation in a class on sociological principals applied in relationship psychology. He asserted that in relationships, with ourselves, before others, it was all-important to be able to say "those three little words". Over the years, I've seen just how right he was and have only come to respect him more and more. I once more tip my hat to that violet-eyed shrewd little man as I prove that I am NOT above saying "Those Three Little Words"...
I. WAS. WRONG. For years of time and too much energy wasted, I was wrong.
So, beginning with this moment, here... http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24779918/
As articulating all the things I'm feeling right now is proving somewhat difficult and I have a massive amount of work to get done here, I'll cut to the heart of the matter-
I will be deleting everything from my gallery of "My Little Prinny". I realize this will upset a few folke, probably cost me several of you lovely watchers and maybe an acquaintance or two and while I never like to upset good folkes who aren't hurting anybody- that's not really the issue here and frankly, I don't care. Not on this point. This is too important. This is The Work.
When I first tried watching the reboot series "My Little Pony:Friendship Is Magick" I immediately saw several sub-textual messages that really troubled me. I've never really touched on these and and don't really have the time to here and now. Looking back through the comics I did for those years, though- that was never the focus of what I was doing. I intentionally avoided touching on those topics as I didn't have the time or care to argue with the more rabid elements of the fanbase about them. The focus of the humour of the comics was almost always more of violence for it's own sake. Looking back, Whether intentional or not, the humour was not always, but almost always built around "Something just got hurt. It's funny because it's mean".
Maybe you don't see it that way, lovely reader. However, would someone else? Would the well-meaning random passer-by with no knowledge of my intentions?
Would my son?
Would he ask me why the little penguin was shooting the pretty winged horsie for just flying around and "Bro-hoofing" another winged horsie? When I explained to him that this wasn't about that, that it's about other completely unrelated issues that disturbed me about the program, and he asked me, as any idiot probably would, "Then why is this all that's in the comic?" What would I say?
I'd say because I'm the idiot. That I allowed my own bitterness to cloud my interactions. And I am sorry.
Believe it or not though, my own fanclub, the "Think-tank" as our household often refers to them, didn't see it that way.
For a long time I've been aware of a group of angry little troll-goblin people folke on FA and a few other sites who watch me and continually re-post my work elsewhere to do an unbelievable amount of bitching, pissing, moaning, complaining and conservative young-republican crying over how horribly anti-christian and evil, liberal, pervert, SJW, "ruining the furry fandom" I am. Given as I've been a furry for longer than many of these kids have been alive, much less past puberty, It really is impressive. According to these turds, I am everything from a rapist to a molester, a horse-fucker- I don't know. *shrugs* Seriously, these pseudo right-wing types said these things....
Still, The one thing I noticed which made me almost double over laughing was when one of these children called me a "brony"...
A "brony"... *stifles a giggle* Just let that roll around in your brain for a touch. Me, the person who- AT THAT TIME- had an XBL profile sporting "I am the anti-bronie"... Me, the gal who as of this moment has a comic featuring a pony with a telephone pole impaling it up the ass... Me, the one with the ongoing series in her gallery of myself and others continually beating "Futa-Jack" bloody while still in her hospital bed from previous beatings... I was a "brony" to these kids. *shakes her head* Again, this is why we call them "The Think-tank". Not too bright, children. Not too bright.
And all new things considered -what I'm about to say- it's also incorrect.
As I understand it, the word you little tossers are looking for when referring to someone like me would be "Pega-sister".
*smiles*
Yes. That's right. I said it. FUCK you.
After watching everything available to me on Netflix and listening to hours upon hours of fan-fictions on Youtube, Yeah... I really do enjoy the fuck out of the show. To be true there's a few things I still dislike- *sighs* oh fuck it- *counts on her fingers* Get this out of the way.... The submission to autocratic authority figures, the thoughtless and somewhat neglectful treatment of the milquetoast submissive (arguably) token-male, the total lack of LGBTQ representation in an 87% same-sex/gender society (stop typing. The one scene of Lyra and Bon-bon hugging does NOT a lesbian couple make) and honestly that's about it- otherwise, I really REALLY do like the show.
And NOT just the show. The fanbase... YES, it has it's problem element to be certain. Many shit people are bronies and have colored my views over the years, gross, mean-spirited, super-nerds, misogynists, gay-bashers, anti-trans, TERFs, gate-keepers and so o( many of whom have moved on and are now the problem-element garbage-people of the Rick and Morty fanbase which keeps me from enjoying THAT show... )
There are similar people in The Satanic Temple though...FAR too many... and I will still take a bullet for TST if it comes to it.
- BUT I've also encountered SO many people in the fandom whom are beautiful people, absolutely beautiful. Kind, Caring, Giving, good-natured people who really do see something so much more to the program than just technicolour mini-horses that sing shmaltzy songs and go on wacky adventures. They see the meaning of those songs, they feel it in their hearts. They believe in something deeper, something wonderful, the real essence of what is going on, not the surface elements. They watch the friendly little pony sing "There's one thing that makes me happy and makes my whole life worthwhile and that's when I talk to my friends and get them to smile" they feel it. They just want to see others happy, like the character in the program.
Like I do. That's what I've always wanted too- just to see others happy, to lift up the people I encounter who need it, protect the ones who need it, educate the ones who need it and learn from the ones willing to teach me... for all the best of reasons- to take the love I feel in my heart and pass it onto others, give them the joy I feel.
"One should strive to act with compassion and empathy towards all creatures in accordance with reason."
"The spirit of compassion, wisdom and justice should always prevail over the written or spoken word."
Is that Satanism or is it My Little pony? *laughs* Doesn't fucking matter. It's goodness for it's own sake, TRUE goodness towards another of one's own volition, for NO OTHER REASON and it's important.
Good people, talented creatives using their craft and the love they feel for what they do to give that love back to the world... Just punch it in there like a fistful of rainbows and warm kisses.
SO- with all that said, back to the title from up top there...
- to any of you lovely artsy folkes with a penchant for the equestrian interested in an opportunity, I have a c-note that says ya'll can give me a decent pony-sona for a new project I'm working on with a few talented folkes. If you're of the mindset to work with me on this, or wish to put me in touch with someone whom just might be, give me a note or PM here and we can talk. If we work well together and you're interested, this might turn into a repeat business partnership, as I'm laying out a series of things I'll be wanting to see some other creatives'pony-themed input on.
I am such a rattling buffet of unattached mess at the moment. *runs her fingers through her hair* I apologize.
OH man... I hope Sanita doesn't kill me for this...*chuckles, rubbing her neck*
Love yourselves and love one another, you boiling cauldrons of sexual perversion.
Years ago when I was working towards a career in counseling, a professor of mine had a very profound observation in a class on sociological principals applied in relationship psychology. He asserted that in relationships, with ourselves, before others, it was all-important to be able to say "those three little words". Over the years, I've seen just how right he was and have only come to respect him more and more. I once more tip my hat to that violet-eyed shrewd little man as I prove that I am NOT above saying "Those Three Little Words"...
I. WAS. WRONG. For years of time and too much energy wasted, I was wrong.
So, beginning with this moment, here... http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24779918/
As articulating all the things I'm feeling right now is proving somewhat difficult and I have a massive amount of work to get done here, I'll cut to the heart of the matter-
I will be deleting everything from my gallery of "My Little Prinny". I realize this will upset a few folke, probably cost me several of you lovely watchers and maybe an acquaintance or two and while I never like to upset good folkes who aren't hurting anybody- that's not really the issue here and frankly, I don't care. Not on this point. This is too important. This is The Work.
When I first tried watching the reboot series "My Little Pony:Friendship Is Magick" I immediately saw several sub-textual messages that really troubled me. I've never really touched on these and and don't really have the time to here and now. Looking back through the comics I did for those years, though- that was never the focus of what I was doing. I intentionally avoided touching on those topics as I didn't have the time or care to argue with the more rabid elements of the fanbase about them. The focus of the humour of the comics was almost always more of violence for it's own sake. Looking back, Whether intentional or not, the humour was not always, but almost always built around "Something just got hurt. It's funny because it's mean".
Maybe you don't see it that way, lovely reader. However, would someone else? Would the well-meaning random passer-by with no knowledge of my intentions?
Would my son?
Would he ask me why the little penguin was shooting the pretty winged horsie for just flying around and "Bro-hoofing" another winged horsie? When I explained to him that this wasn't about that, that it's about other completely unrelated issues that disturbed me about the program, and he asked me, as any idiot probably would, "Then why is this all that's in the comic?" What would I say?
I'd say because I'm the idiot. That I allowed my own bitterness to cloud my interactions. And I am sorry.
Believe it or not though, my own fanclub, the "Think-tank" as our household often refers to them, didn't see it that way.
For a long time I've been aware of a group of angry little troll-goblin people folke on FA and a few other sites who watch me and continually re-post my work elsewhere to do an unbelievable amount of bitching, pissing, moaning, complaining and conservative young-republican crying over how horribly anti-christian and evil, liberal, pervert, SJW, "ruining the furry fandom" I am. Given as I've been a furry for longer than many of these kids have been alive, much less past puberty, It really is impressive. According to these turds, I am everything from a rapist to a molester, a horse-fucker- I don't know. *shrugs* Seriously, these pseudo right-wing types said these things....
Still, The one thing I noticed which made me almost double over laughing was when one of these children called me a "brony"...
A "brony"... *stifles a giggle* Just let that roll around in your brain for a touch. Me, the person who- AT THAT TIME- had an XBL profile sporting "I am the anti-bronie"... Me, the gal who as of this moment has a comic featuring a pony with a telephone pole impaling it up the ass... Me, the one with the ongoing series in her gallery of myself and others continually beating "Futa-Jack" bloody while still in her hospital bed from previous beatings... I was a "brony" to these kids. *shakes her head* Again, this is why we call them "The Think-tank". Not too bright, children. Not too bright.
And all new things considered -what I'm about to say- it's also incorrect.
As I understand it, the word you little tossers are looking for when referring to someone like me would be "Pega-sister".
*smiles*
Yes. That's right. I said it. FUCK you.
After watching everything available to me on Netflix and listening to hours upon hours of fan-fictions on Youtube, Yeah... I really do enjoy the fuck out of the show. To be true there's a few things I still dislike- *sighs* oh fuck it- *counts on her fingers* Get this out of the way.... The submission to autocratic authority figures, the thoughtless and somewhat neglectful treatment of the milquetoast submissive (arguably) token-male, the total lack of LGBTQ representation in an 87% same-sex/gender society (stop typing. The one scene of Lyra and Bon-bon hugging does NOT a lesbian couple make) and honestly that's about it- otherwise, I really REALLY do like the show.
And NOT just the show. The fanbase... YES, it has it's problem element to be certain. Many shit people are bronies and have colored my views over the years, gross, mean-spirited, super-nerds, misogynists, gay-bashers, anti-trans, TERFs, gate-keepers and so o( many of whom have moved on and are now the problem-element garbage-people of the Rick and Morty fanbase which keeps me from enjoying THAT show... )
There are similar people in The Satanic Temple though...FAR too many... and I will still take a bullet for TST if it comes to it.
- BUT I've also encountered SO many people in the fandom whom are beautiful people, absolutely beautiful. Kind, Caring, Giving, good-natured people who really do see something so much more to the program than just technicolour mini-horses that sing shmaltzy songs and go on wacky adventures. They see the meaning of those songs, they feel it in their hearts. They believe in something deeper, something wonderful, the real essence of what is going on, not the surface elements. They watch the friendly little pony sing "There's one thing that makes me happy and makes my whole life worthwhile and that's when I talk to my friends and get them to smile" they feel it. They just want to see others happy, like the character in the program.
Like I do. That's what I've always wanted too- just to see others happy, to lift up the people I encounter who need it, protect the ones who need it, educate the ones who need it and learn from the ones willing to teach me... for all the best of reasons- to take the love I feel in my heart and pass it onto others, give them the joy I feel.
"One should strive to act with compassion and empathy towards all creatures in accordance with reason."
"The spirit of compassion, wisdom and justice should always prevail over the written or spoken word."
Is that Satanism or is it My Little pony? *laughs* Doesn't fucking matter. It's goodness for it's own sake, TRUE goodness towards another of one's own volition, for NO OTHER REASON and it's important.
Good people, talented creatives using their craft and the love they feel for what they do to give that love back to the world... Just punch it in there like a fistful of rainbows and warm kisses.
SO- with all that said, back to the title from up top there...
- to any of you lovely artsy folkes with a penchant for the equestrian interested in an opportunity, I have a c-note that says ya'll can give me a decent pony-sona for a new project I'm working on with a few talented folkes. If you're of the mindset to work with me on this, or wish to put me in touch with someone whom just might be, give me a note or PM here and we can talk. If we work well together and you're interested, this might turn into a repeat business partnership, as I'm laying out a series of things I'll be wanting to see some other creatives'pony-themed input on.
I am such a rattling buffet of unattached mess at the moment. *runs her fingers through her hair* I apologize.
OH man... I hope Sanita doesn't kill me for this...*chuckles, rubbing her neck*
Love yourselves and love one another, you boiling cauldrons of sexual perversion.
Some of the episodes were cheerfully violent, like Twilight getting hit with a piano. I grew up watching the most violent, misogynist, racist cartoons of the past century (Bugs Bunny), so yeah, I found it amusing. Am I a bad person for that? No; I watch Rick and Morty, for Astarte's sake.
But I can certainly understand that this is something that you don't want your son to discover and ask you about. It shows that you want to be a good parent.
All true, love, and thank you for the compliment re:Edgar.
Though mostly, this is a matter of owning what I feel to be poor work on my part which did not express the message I was intending, as many couples tend to fight about leaving the hair-dryer on the sink but are actually upset because they're afraid that they won't have enough money for rent that month- that sort of thing.
Some of the fight scenes are a homage to Dragon Ball Z! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eoowtoEle14
Discord remains a favourite mess of mine for a multitude of reasons.
Re-reading a few of my older comics, it really bugged me on an artistic, if not humanist, level. I still feel the annoyance I did then, even if I enjoy the program now, but they trouble me because it's just sloppy, bad work. I didn't convey anything I was feeling besides annoyance. *sets her chin* Maybe that's enough to give some people enjoyment, and that's awesome, but it's not enough for me.
Like you I found the show rather, well, bleh. The animation isn't half-bad but I found the plots overly simplified and usually conflicts that would be resolved super easily if people communicate, but I guess that's the point, they're trying to teach their main target demo (REALLY young girls) to talk things out instead of brooding, plotting and backstabbing each other over every minor conflict, so I guess that's always a positive thing. I have known plenty of people of both genders that would much rather take the passive-aggressive route and gossip behind someone's back, try to ruin their reputation in their community and workplace, etc. instead of, you know, act like an adult and solve their conflict through rational civil discourse. If only they'd learned otherwise earlier...
I'm always on the fence with that kind of thing, because I can't help but ask myself if removing the evidences of past mistakes can help us, and others, learn from them and grow? Isn't removing them like erasing a part of our past, a part of us? One that we're not proud of, but one that can act in contrast to who we are today, show how we evolved, matured, progressed, or not in some cases?
I guess it kind of fall in the same kind of questions as 'what to do with the confederates statues in America's deep south?' or 'should we remove content considered offending today from the Looney Tunes?' Something that the one and only Whoopie Goldberg replies to: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HCT1clqci3I
Food for more thoughts, I guess... ;)
Its again, NOT an issue of "offensive content". I've already covered this. Getting REALLY tired of repeating myself... I tend to offend many people. Depending on perspective, my page is LOADED with offensive content. I'm actually pretty good at it, it seems, and I don't mind offending shitty people who need to be told to fuck off and stop being Assholes.
Oh and fuck the confederate statues. Simple. We can recall history without generating it. Monuments should be made to people and ebents worth memorializing and the sildiers who murdered thousands in the name of slavery do not deserve the same honour as heroes. Fuck the confederates. Fuck racism. Fuck slavery
It wouldn't be you if there was no offensive content anymore. I think that's one of the things that people like about you, or, at least about your gallery, enough to click that +watch button. ;)
We have a saying in French: "La liberté des uns s'arrête là où commence celle des autres." Which would roughly translate as "Your liberty stop where mine begins", more or less. Basically, they are free to say that want you to keep those comics online, they express their opinion, but you are free to remove it if you see fit to it because it's your work and they have to respect that. Not sure if I make as much sense as I want to here, but I'm running on 3 hours of sleep in the past 24 hours, my apologize if what I write is gibberish...
What is worth memorialising seems very dependant on the personal opinion of people, but that's not a conversation for FA.
The initial Querry is for a singular "pony-sona' image, though if the work and more importantly, the artist themselves, meet the needs of the project it might spread out into a much larger and long-lasting opportunity.
I'm not interested in any manner of pony-porn or such. That's about the farthest thing from the aspects I enjoy and have come to admire about the program. Just a matter of a 'sona.
I too enjoy the show, but found those same aspects (cow-towing to authority, tons of female characters who don't romance because...?) troubling. (I've not watched every episode, so abuse of the token male character, is something I missed.) But I'll raise you a (taking a friend down a peg because they are not going along with the group's values). For a while, MLP and Adventure Time were both on-the-air, and the contrast between the messages in the two was amazing.
I'd argue Adventure Time was poorly-planned and had morally questionable messages... and would better prepare a child for living in this world.