I know I never really post journals about my personal life... but I need to today...

Last night, I lost my beautiful baby puppo, Sadie. I had her for 8 years.... she was the best dog ever. A huge English bull mastiff. My big girl...

10 days ago, she had surgery to repair a fracture in her upper back leg. It was a bad break... ended up costing almost 5k Canadian Dollars to get the fracture repaired...
We did it, cuz we loved her and asked my parents to help us out...
Last night, a complication arose. Something happened and she was bleeding internally. Her red blood cell count was so low the vet was ready to do a transfusion. They were getting her settled and ready for us to come say goodnight and see her in the morning when they rushed in and said you need to see her now.
We went back and she was in distress. Clearly on pain and seizing up.
I made the incredibly hard decision to end her pain...
I'm so broken... I'm missing a part of me. I cant stop crying... I'm in bed at the moment clutching her collar while typing this. It smells like her still...

I'm not one to do this but if anyone out there does want to donate something to help me get her an urn and memorial glass art from Artful Ashes, it would be greatly appreciated. It's not at all needed. But again... appreciated greatly...

https://www.paypal.me/AkLaErRiO

Sorry for the spill of emotions. I cant sleep and needed to externalize some...

Thank you for reading...