And, honestly, I'm still not sick of being a fur. I do think the fur community can be toxic at times, but most furs I've met are really friendly and nice. When I first became a fur, I went by as Nikki the Cat, a transfemale. At the time, I was certain I felt like a female, but now, these days, I feel more.. non-binary...I guess?

Fast forward 2 years, I went by as Yevren the Cat, but, this time, my sona was a herm.. several months later, I'd keep switching back and forth between fox, and bunny... then a year later, I went with being a fox for a while. then an otter, bunny-otter, goat, dragon, deer..etc... basically, I could never stick with one sona, and still struggle with sticking to my current one. I've always gotten bored of a sona and went on to be a different species... then eventually go back.. The most consistent one is bunny.

Going back to when I first became a fur, I was.. kinda your stereotypical furry, dramatic, overly horny.. etc. I mean, admittedly, I'm still a horndog but not as much of one. lol I became a fur when I was 10-ish. I didn't start drawing until I was 16, and I mainly stuck to just doodling whatever at school.. from just silly stuff of my sona, to.. crude drawings of dicks. lol I met Pyro ( Butlerdog13 ) around when I was 16 or 17, I eventually asked him for help on drawing, and he's probably one of the main reasons why I was able to improve. A year or two later, I met my ex, I'll call him Ori, He was my first legitimate mate for nearly a year, but.. he caused a lot of drama for me, Pyro and a few of my other friends so I had to break up with him as I didn't need that kind of toxicity in my life. A year later, I finally moved out of my abusive family's place to live with Taz, and, my god, it was the worst 2 and a half years of my life without my family. Taz was just...using me for sex, his friends would constantly harass me and treat me like shit to the point where I feared for my safety, only two of Taz's friends actually treated me like a human being.. I worked at McDonald's for 2 months, got fired over bullshit, and Taz's mum would constantly threaten to kick me out of I didn't get a job, which I was trying my damn best to find a job.. I got kicked out in May of 2016.. and a lady saved me, I, shamefully, moved back into my parents' place afterwards and faced 2 more years of abuse from my father, I met Kitsy ( Kitsy27 ) not long after I was forced to move back to my parents' place, and Kitsy, later, became my mate, which.. to this day, he still is my mate, and I am happy for it. About a year later, my dad threatened to kick me out over yardwork I couldn't do by myself, and two of my friends came to pick me up and dropped me off at Kitsy's place, which I still happily live here with him. Half a year goes by, and Kitsy and I meet Kira ( Riokyn_The_Mouse ) and he was our mate for a while, he helped us out a ton and got us through a lot. Kira remains our friend and hopefully will still remain that way for as long as we live.

Sorry for the long journal, this is basically just to recall my history.

The fur fandom, honestly, impacted my life in a major way, and, to be honest, if I wasn't a fur I wouldn't have met Kitsy, Pyro or anyone else I would most likely be dead right now. I know I may have missed some details, but then this journal would be much longer.. >w>;;