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6 years ago
Hey all. It's been about a month since my last journal and my situation is more dire than it has ever been. I really need help..
A couple days after I posted my last journal, my father passed away. He had been sick for a really long time and he did very little to help himself get better. He had been an alcoholic for my entire life and even as his health continued to rapidly decline, he refused to try and stop or even slow down his reckless lifestyle. He took his last breath in our living room on June 12th and despite desperate efforts from myself and the EMTs, his body finally said no more.
The stability of my living situation has been dependent on my father since I moved in with him back in 2016. For the past 20 years he's lived in this house which belongs to my uncle (his brother). I'm not going to sugar coat things, my dad was a mooch. He did very little to provide my uncle with anything of equal monetary value that would be fair for him to stay in the home for the past two decades. It is only because he was uncle's brother that my uncle tolerated his behavior for so long. When I came into the picture a few years ago, I began to pay rent and pay the cable bill, and it was my assumption that the money I'd been giving to my dad was going to my uncle. A lot of things came to the surface once my dad died and was no longer able to conceal them; the fact that my uncle never received a penny of what I'd been giving my father was only one of many of those things.
I'm a single mother. It took almost two years in and out of mediations, counselings and court rooms for me to win full custody of my son and less than three months after this ruling, my son's father decided he no longer wanted to see him. Despite my continued efforts for almost a year now, I have yet to see a cent of any child support from him. This is a separate issue, but I'm just trying to outline the fact that I have no income from any source at the moment apart from my art and this is why I'm so desperately seeking commissions - and something I've never asked for until now - donations.
My uncle is selling the home I'm in, which he has every right to do. He had been given the run around for so many years from my dad, I don't blame him for being at the end of his rope. He's been very kind to me, allowing me to stay until the end of the summer, but after that, I have nowhere to go. My father was the last of my family, I am effectively very alone right now in terms of where to go from here and have no one that I can ask for help. If this was just about me, I wouldn't be as scared as I am, but it's not about just me. I'm terrified for how I'm going to provide for my son and my cat.
When my dad started getting really sick, he needed constant care. He couldn't be left alone and when he was, he would fall and hurt himself, soil himself, drink far too much, etc. I had to quit my job. At the same time, our only means of transportation was his truck (that my grandmother bought him), but when he became ill it was taken back and resold to cover his medical bills and prescription costs. I have applied for jobs close to me, within walking distance or within a reasonable distance via public transportation but nothing I could get in the area I'm in would come even a little bit close to being able to afford this entire home by myself. Not to mention, I couldn't afford that as well as child care costs, even if I did come across a decent wage. Unfortunately, however, I haven't received any calls by the places I've applied to anyway.
I was unable to pay my phone bill for the past two months. My service provider has cut off my service and I'm only able to use the phone if it's connected to wifi at this point. I don't have wifi, though (I am presently using a friend's wifi, but I will be returning home in TWO days). I rely on my phone's hotspot for everything related to the internet. So if I can't pay my phone bill, I can't make any money (if I managed to get some stable commission work, that is). And if I can't make any money, I can't pay my phone bill. Or any bills. Or save up to try and afford an apartment. Or afford cat food. Or make sure my son has everything he needs. It's a vicious cycle and I can't get out on my own. I REALLY need help. I'm reaching out to
falendahand after I post this journal and I'm going to try to advertise as much as possible (so please forgive me if I bother you with repeating posts, but I have no other options at this time).
As stated before, I am open for commissions. Anything. Sketches, line art, painted work, headshots, chibi stuff, tattoo designs, pinups, reference sheets, original designs, fanart.. anything. Below I'm posting ychs that I've had up for a while as well as my paypal email for anyone that's willing and able to donate anything. Everything counts, even if it's just a dollar. I will be keeping track of everyone that's able to give anything and once I'm on my feet, everyone that was able to help will receive a little something from me. So if you do donate, any amount at all, please note me with a picture of a character you'd like some form of art of in the future.
My phone bill is presently a whopping $464.16. $170.85 is due by July 23rd. $293.32 is due immediately and needed to turn my service back on. Late fees and return service fees added a lot to this sum. :/ If anyone willing to donate or commission me would like proof of this bill, I won't be offended if it's asked for prior to commissioning from/donating to me.
I'd like to save $1000 by the end of the summer so I can have some real hope of not ending up in a shelter, but getting my phone bill out of the way first is needed to be able to even have access to the internet so I can hopefully get some real work flow happening.
If all you can do is share this journal, then please do so. Spreading the word helps so much.
For commission prices please send me a note of what you'd like and we can work out a fair cost.
Thank you.
my paypal:
sugarfawn[at]live.com
available art:
pinups
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/27880770/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/27880753/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/27880713/
summer theme
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27880794/
halloween theme
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/28796681/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/28693753/
HEAD SHOT EXAMPLES (2-4 hour turn around)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/26133761/
currently working on:
chibi ref sheet (x1)
monetary goals:
phone bill- $0/$465
apartment cost- $0/$1000
A couple days after I posted my last journal, my father passed away. He had been sick for a really long time and he did very little to help himself get better. He had been an alcoholic for my entire life and even as his health continued to rapidly decline, he refused to try and stop or even slow down his reckless lifestyle. He took his last breath in our living room on June 12th and despite desperate efforts from myself and the EMTs, his body finally said no more.
The stability of my living situation has been dependent on my father since I moved in with him back in 2016. For the past 20 years he's lived in this house which belongs to my uncle (his brother). I'm not going to sugar coat things, my dad was a mooch. He did very little to provide my uncle with anything of equal monetary value that would be fair for him to stay in the home for the past two decades. It is only because he was uncle's brother that my uncle tolerated his behavior for so long. When I came into the picture a few years ago, I began to pay rent and pay the cable bill, and it was my assumption that the money I'd been giving to my dad was going to my uncle. A lot of things came to the surface once my dad died and was no longer able to conceal them; the fact that my uncle never received a penny of what I'd been giving my father was only one of many of those things.
I'm a single mother. It took almost two years in and out of mediations, counselings and court rooms for me to win full custody of my son and less than three months after this ruling, my son's father decided he no longer wanted to see him. Despite my continued efforts for almost a year now, I have yet to see a cent of any child support from him. This is a separate issue, but I'm just trying to outline the fact that I have no income from any source at the moment apart from my art and this is why I'm so desperately seeking commissions - and something I've never asked for until now - donations.
My uncle is selling the home I'm in, which he has every right to do. He had been given the run around for so many years from my dad, I don't blame him for being at the end of his rope. He's been very kind to me, allowing me to stay until the end of the summer, but after that, I have nowhere to go. My father was the last of my family, I am effectively very alone right now in terms of where to go from here and have no one that I can ask for help. If this was just about me, I wouldn't be as scared as I am, but it's not about just me. I'm terrified for how I'm going to provide for my son and my cat.
When my dad started getting really sick, he needed constant care. He couldn't be left alone and when he was, he would fall and hurt himself, soil himself, drink far too much, etc. I had to quit my job. At the same time, our only means of transportation was his truck (that my grandmother bought him), but when he became ill it was taken back and resold to cover his medical bills and prescription costs. I have applied for jobs close to me, within walking distance or within a reasonable distance via public transportation but nothing I could get in the area I'm in would come even a little bit close to being able to afford this entire home by myself. Not to mention, I couldn't afford that as well as child care costs, even if I did come across a decent wage. Unfortunately, however, I haven't received any calls by the places I've applied to anyway.
I was unable to pay my phone bill for the past two months. My service provider has cut off my service and I'm only able to use the phone if it's connected to wifi at this point. I don't have wifi, though (I am presently using a friend's wifi, but I will be returning home in TWO days). I rely on my phone's hotspot for everything related to the internet. So if I can't pay my phone bill, I can't make any money (if I managed to get some stable commission work, that is). And if I can't make any money, I can't pay my phone bill. Or any bills. Or save up to try and afford an apartment. Or afford cat food. Or make sure my son has everything he needs. It's a vicious cycle and I can't get out on my own. I REALLY need help. I'm reaching out to
falendahand after I post this journal and I'm going to try to advertise as much as possible (so please forgive me if I bother you with repeating posts, but I have no other options at this time).As stated before, I am open for commissions. Anything. Sketches, line art, painted work, headshots, chibi stuff, tattoo designs, pinups, reference sheets, original designs, fanart.. anything. Below I'm posting ychs that I've had up for a while as well as my paypal email for anyone that's willing and able to donate anything. Everything counts, even if it's just a dollar. I will be keeping track of everyone that's able to give anything and once I'm on my feet, everyone that was able to help will receive a little something from me. So if you do donate, any amount at all, please note me with a picture of a character you'd like some form of art of in the future.
My phone bill is presently a whopping $464.16. $170.85 is due by July 23rd. $293.32 is due immediately and needed to turn my service back on. Late fees and return service fees added a lot to this sum. :/ If anyone willing to donate or commission me would like proof of this bill, I won't be offended if it's asked for prior to commissioning from/donating to me.
I'd like to save $1000 by the end of the summer so I can have some real hope of not ending up in a shelter, but getting my phone bill out of the way first is needed to be able to even have access to the internet so I can hopefully get some real work flow happening.
If all you can do is share this journal, then please do so. Spreading the word helps so much.
For commission prices please send me a note of what you'd like and we can work out a fair cost.
Thank you.
my paypal:
sugarfawn[at]live.com
available art:
pinups
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/27880770/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/27880753/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/27880713/
summer theme
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27880794/
halloween theme
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/28796681/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/28693753/
HEAD SHOT EXAMPLES (2-4 hour turn around)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/26133761/
currently working on:
chibi ref sheet (x1)
monetary goals:
phone bill- $0/$465
apartment cost- $0/$1000
thank you, sweet birb.
please note me a ref of a character you'd like drawn in the future! <3
If/when you get settled and want to draw something for me, my main character is just me - an orange and white tabby. https://www.furaffinity.net/view/22297416/
But she's boring.
You might prefer to draw Cap'n Mirabolis, the pi-rat. https://www.furaffinity.net/view/13055092/ https://www.furaffinity.net/view/20.....view/21510601/ She is the captain of the ship the Skatehawk, which is a skateboard with a shoe box duct taped to it. She and her crew of motley pirats sail around a Wal-Mart looking for booty. As in, like, treasure, not booty as in booty call. Hey. It's a children's book I'm writing. PG13 at the worst. OK. Sorry that I'm rambling. I work third shift and am quite tired right now. I can't shut up when I'm tired.
Good luck!