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It's been like 3 months now since he dropped from everything, and I just grow more worried.

I am still really worried..

Still just.. gone.
Fucking hell.

I still often think about him and his boyfriend Gills, how both just dissappeared off the internet one day. Gills at least told me he'd be gone for at least a 3 year contract off digging power line cables in extremely rural canada, middle of nowhere stuff.
I think it was like a few months later after he left that Tobalth just randomly dissapeared. Deleted his Discord, and his F-list, and privated his FA. I still feel so guilty when I found out I was the last one to talk to him, like a week prior where he seemed to be fine. I felt like a shitty friend who wasn't there when he needed me, man. Still do, I guess that's why I feel so.. wistful in missing them but also guilty.

I also noticed later down the line that Gills full on removed a lot of his stuff, really only his Discord that's remaining but that's long dormant. That 3 year contract would have run out by now.. but I guess.. I guess he moved on to other things, left the internet world behind I suppose.. or something happened, god forbid if something happened.

He was such a close friend to me.. both of them were. Gills though was always there for me whenever I vented, and like helped me out a lot back then. God do I miss them both.
I just never have been able to let this go, to not know what happened to either of them just eats me up inside man.

I am extremely worried as well. I hope he is ok

Normally when someone does that, deletes and removes everything, they want a fresh start for whatever reason. It requires a lot of forethought so I wouldn't be too worried about them. Definitely understandable to mourn a lost relationship however.

still nothing from Tobalth or Gills? aww man. now i AM Really worried