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The Furry Community and How it has affected me.
6 years ago
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I've come to realize after a lot of thought and time, that with my gradual slow shift away from the furry fandom and its facets that I dislike, I have still one more problem that I had for a long time, refused to address.
And now that I am where in my life, I feel like I need to stand up and make the change for myself before I lose it all. I have a boyfriend, one who I love very much, but unfortunately I had been for so long living a lifestyle of "the single life" and "2D women and men are better than real ones" and well...now I know full well that just isn't true anymore.
I have an addiction, and it has been controlling me for too long, I rely too heavily on smut and the easy way out...looking at porn, and it's has been compromising my relationship lately. I won't go into more detail than neccessary but I write this today to make a firm declaration about what I will draw, and post, from now on.
Like it or not a lot of my work has been posted to please all of you, I sought your admiration and validation to the point where it became unhealthy, I wasn't doing enough of my artwork for me, and the posts that I did do because I wanted to, when they never recieved validation, I would use that against myself. So from here on out, I need to take a stand for me, I don't get sexually needy "naturally" anymore...and my artwork has just been perpetuating that addiction too. I have to learn how to do things for myself, and unfortunately furry art has done little more than feed that addiction. Its just all sex, all the time, day in and day out, and even though I would cry out for something more meaningful, I'd still just keep coming back to the same old habits of feeding my addiction every single night.
It must end. I am with someone I love now, I'm 27, I have a job, a hobby I enjoy, and a relationship I want to cultivate. Yea some furs aren't all about sex but...the majority of the stuff on this page, even my page, its all to titillate people. If I'm going to kick this addiction I need to start from the source, this is my choice.
From now on, whatever I post, it will be something I did because I wanted to do it. I need to stop looking for validation from strangers, I need to stop appealing to the whims of the crowd just to feel worthwhile. I am a person worthy of more than I ever gave myself credit for. So no more instant gratification, no more using this page of endless smut for an outlet, no more hiding from reality. I need to take steps to fix this, and to that end I am putting a stop to my religious watching of this page, I'm putting a stop to drawing sexy stuff just to appeal to people. Im putting a stop to my endless need to be validated by you all.
From now on, I need to express myself for the sake of expressing myself. Thats what being an artist is all about. So, less Gardevoir smut, less renamon smut, less isabelle smut. More fanart of Tali, more cute pictures of characters I like. More creative ideas, memes, jokes and art for the sake of art. From now on, I'm sticking to what makes me happy, and I'm quitting the 2D woman. I have a real person who I love now, and that matters to me far more than the amount of watchers I have on here.
I will still post, I will still express myself, and I'll still maintain friendships...but I need to stop letting the fandom feed into my addiction, and start letting it feed into my creativity.
Thank you all for your support. I'll post more art soon <3
And now that I am where in my life, I feel like I need to stand up and make the change for myself before I lose it all. I have a boyfriend, one who I love very much, but unfortunately I had been for so long living a lifestyle of "the single life" and "2D women and men are better than real ones" and well...now I know full well that just isn't true anymore.
I have an addiction, and it has been controlling me for too long, I rely too heavily on smut and the easy way out...looking at porn, and it's has been compromising my relationship lately. I won't go into more detail than neccessary but I write this today to make a firm declaration about what I will draw, and post, from now on.
Like it or not a lot of my work has been posted to please all of you, I sought your admiration and validation to the point where it became unhealthy, I wasn't doing enough of my artwork for me, and the posts that I did do because I wanted to, when they never recieved validation, I would use that against myself. So from here on out, I need to take a stand for me, I don't get sexually needy "naturally" anymore...and my artwork has just been perpetuating that addiction too. I have to learn how to do things for myself, and unfortunately furry art has done little more than feed that addiction. Its just all sex, all the time, day in and day out, and even though I would cry out for something more meaningful, I'd still just keep coming back to the same old habits of feeding my addiction every single night.
It must end. I am with someone I love now, I'm 27, I have a job, a hobby I enjoy, and a relationship I want to cultivate. Yea some furs aren't all about sex but...the majority of the stuff on this page, even my page, its all to titillate people. If I'm going to kick this addiction I need to start from the source, this is my choice.
From now on, whatever I post, it will be something I did because I wanted to do it. I need to stop looking for validation from strangers, I need to stop appealing to the whims of the crowd just to feel worthwhile. I am a person worthy of more than I ever gave myself credit for. So no more instant gratification, no more using this page of endless smut for an outlet, no more hiding from reality. I need to take steps to fix this, and to that end I am putting a stop to my religious watching of this page, I'm putting a stop to drawing sexy stuff just to appeal to people. Im putting a stop to my endless need to be validated by you all.
From now on, I need to express myself for the sake of expressing myself. Thats what being an artist is all about. So, less Gardevoir smut, less renamon smut, less isabelle smut. More fanart of Tali, more cute pictures of characters I like. More creative ideas, memes, jokes and art for the sake of art. From now on, I'm sticking to what makes me happy, and I'm quitting the 2D woman. I have a real person who I love now, and that matters to me far more than the amount of watchers I have on here.
I will still post, I will still express myself, and I'll still maintain friendships...but I need to stop letting the fandom feed into my addiction, and start letting it feed into my creativity.
Thank you all for your support. I'll post more art soon <3
I'm not judging you with your decision, but let me tell you something: do it with caution because is a matter of time that, your friends, will call you a "prude" in the future. Trust me.
And, good luck with your boyfriend.
I'm very happy for you, chief. I know how hard it can be to give some things up but hey. Doing things for yourself is going to do wonders for you, so don't worry about the outcome.
I'm looking forward to seeing your new material. c:
Remember: beauty is in the eyes of the beholder. I'm not saying that the 2d body are superior to the real ones (I really agree with you), is about of tastes and cultural norms.
No matter is your decision is good or bad, you're an artist, and a artist has the final say.
Don't give up Jeff! Stay 💪 man!