for years ive been working on the backlog, and ive come a LONG way from my over 50+ backlog. and i know it seems a strange time to finnaly throw my hands up, but i want a blank slate.

its gotten to the point, where im not enjoying the commission. its gotten way past that point.
ive not produced art for spans of weeks at a time and its fueled my guilt and self loathing.

so much of my time in therapy im talking about how much i hate myself, and most of it is coming from my feelings of inadequacy. that i feel like a failure. and for a while, its stemmed from my steady decline as an artist. having had commissions closed for years working off all that art debt.


certain projects im genuinely excited to work on, and ill still do them. but some of them are either not in my realm of expertese or just feel so massive they stress me out from just thinking about them.

so for the time being. im only going to be selling YCH peices. so that i may pay people back, work on the peices i KNOW i can do well. and not feel guilty about drawing my own work again.


Art is supposed to be the major positive in my life. i want to love it again