Im not in a good place mentally. Physically, im still hurt. Ive tried to resume my life as best i can but i cannot do things that require a full range of motion and its very depressing. Im sleep 80% of my day, ive gained so much weight these past few weeks. Due to my adopts not doing well and constant complications with selling my possessions, im way behind on payments which is adding fees and penalties. Im very angry and sad. Im afraid. My life had been so quiet and mellow for a while and suddenly im hit with so much tragedy, in such a short time and its alarming. Friday, i got the ambulance bill and it was friggin $3050. My heart sunk. I hate living in the middle of nowhere. What am i suppose to do? How do i fix this and resume my life? I just want everything to go back to normal. Its hard to cry and be upset about these things because im always told life is suppose to be tough so when these things happen, "you just gotta power through them". I feel so weak. Afraid and alone. Its hard knowing that anyone who wants to help is unable to help due to their circumstances but feel like their not doing enough. How am i suppose to reassure them that its ok that they cannot remedy the problem? Its a gut wrenching feeling.

My due dates are creeping up on me and im running thin on options. Between art and working small jobs i was able to support my portion of bills. Everything is crumbling down and im at a loss.