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6 years ago
I don’t know who or what I am
I thought I finally found myself
I thought I finally found freedom
But... I am still trapped inside this god forsaken body.
With this god forsaken mind.
I tell people to never be afraid of expressing themselves.
I tell them they should never be ashamed of who they are
But who am I?
Am I Erza Bear? Dragon girl, born of human parents and got turned into a monster?
Am I a simple quiet man. Who has trouble communicating his thoughts? Not being able to express himself properly. Then causing misunderstanding and/or actually hurting someone.
Am I the strong and beautiful woman who tries her best to guide and push others to be better than they were yesterday?
Am I the man who is over weight and ugly who tries to avoid human contact cause he has very little experience with it?
Who am I?
What the fuck am I?
I thought I finally found myself
I thought I finally found freedom
But... I am still trapped inside this god forsaken body.
With this god forsaken mind.
I tell people to never be afraid of expressing themselves.
I tell them they should never be ashamed of who they are
But who am I?
Am I Erza Bear? Dragon girl, born of human parents and got turned into a monster?
Am I a simple quiet man. Who has trouble communicating his thoughts? Not being able to express himself properly. Then causing misunderstanding and/or actually hurting someone.
Am I the strong and beautiful woman who tries her best to guide and push others to be better than they were yesterday?
Am I the man who is over weight and ugly who tries to avoid human contact cause he has very little experience with it?
Who am I?
What the fuck am I?
What happens?
Someone gets hurt
Maybe I should disappear
What makes me happy?
To see the joy in others and know that I had some part in it.
To lift someone higher than they thought was possible
Hell no
Cause I know what it’s like to live in the shadow of a lie
To be put down
Treated like your nothing
Made fun of
It is not a feeling I want others to experience
I know that I cannot fully prevent it
But I want to build up my friends foundation.
The firm foot hold that they can use to stand up proud and strong against the bullies of the world
How the hell can I live with myself knowing that I did that?
It has been beaten down
With no true healing
Only pills to numb the pain
Yet I feel alone
I try to reach out to people and they judge me before they even get to know me
Is it me?
Am I doing this all wrong?
Should I just quit?
I want everyone to know
I tried
And I’m sorry that I failed