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Venting
16 years ago
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Ive been feeling a bit lonely lately. I don't know why, but I have. Whenever I feel like this, is when I isolate myself from others on purpose when I dedicate the most of my time to my crafts. Its usually an aftershock though after I step back into reality. But lately, I've been teaching myself that I can still have a social live (or lives if you count FA) and still focus on my goals. And I feel that I have been making progress.
But for some strange reason, I still feel like I'm by myself...
I've been contemplating moving out of my parents house and into my own apartment. My father believes its a good idea, while my mother thinks I'm doing the devil a favor (rolls eyes). A few of my friends have told me that I'm pretty much more independent than I can be with the type of job I have and the fact that I have a car. But it's like a void that won't go away until I know that I'm in a place where I can invite who I want, do what I want and focus on the things I need to focus on.
But I don't think me wanting to move out on my own is the problem. I know that in one of my earlier journals I said that there was the possibility that I couldn't be ready to be in a relationship no matter what sex I end up with because of my passions taking over more than my feelings. But I think that once I can get a place of my own, I can try to call my own bluff. I have plans for it in the future, but I'm not sure.
I know I'm not alone; I got great friends both here on FA and those I interact with in person everyday that care about me and my well being. Believe me when I say that knowing each and every one of you is a treasure I'll keep with me forever. I just think that I've realized that being lonely sucks.
And I don't want to be lonely anymore...
But for some strange reason, I still feel like I'm by myself...
I've been contemplating moving out of my parents house and into my own apartment. My father believes its a good idea, while my mother thinks I'm doing the devil a favor (rolls eyes). A few of my friends have told me that I'm pretty much more independent than I can be with the type of job I have and the fact that I have a car. But it's like a void that won't go away until I know that I'm in a place where I can invite who I want, do what I want and focus on the things I need to focus on.
But I don't think me wanting to move out on my own is the problem. I know that in one of my earlier journals I said that there was the possibility that I couldn't be ready to be in a relationship no matter what sex I end up with because of my passions taking over more than my feelings. But I think that once I can get a place of my own, I can try to call my own bluff. I have plans for it in the future, but I'm not sure.
I know I'm not alone; I got great friends both here on FA and those I interact with in person everyday that care about me and my well being. Believe me when I say that knowing each and every one of you is a treasure I'll keep with me forever. I just think that I've realized that being lonely sucks.
And I don't want to be lonely anymore...
we all go through it and besides you do have friends that are important to ya
As well we all may be far away but we have problems everyday but still
think of each other
We all wonder what we do and all
and sometimes make some connections
but don't feel bad be glad
*hugs* We still by your side
We may be not there
but were still here
voids r sumtimes inexplainable and come from God knows where half the time.
thankfully, sumtimes the very thing to fill the gaps happens in the same manner
just give urself time, dont rush urself, and try new things. maybe itll click =]
It's just a silly feeling. Don't let it rule you so intensely.
Like.. this feeling you have right now. What are you gonna do, hm?
The emptiness of a soul is kinda lacking of security.
Dont think of the loneliness too much, it has no answer and will never end.
Even having a partner doesnt mean that you are not alone.
The loneliness from being scraped is much harder and more tough than imagined.
Remember that there are always have friends who care about you......
for instance, Koku ~LOL~~~~~~ ( keep laughing and escape )
*Bear Hugssssss*
xxxxxx