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UPDATE: Lack of posting/Plans for 2020
6 years ago
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howdy howdy howdy! ummm first things frists, hey umm I'm doing okay sorry for the lack of art. if you want regular art updates, check out my Inkbunny and Twitter :)okay now storytime. as some of you may or may not know, my grandmother recently passed away on Friday the 13th of September last year.
it really hit my family hard. what doesn't help is that it was a sudden death, she fell and hit her head on the cupboard after not putting the brakes on her wheelchair.
doctors seemed to think she had a heart attack on the floor.
by the time mum got to the hospital, she rang me telling me to get over there. thankfully my friend drove me down and had my back. I am forever grateful for her. without her, I honestly wouldn't have been able to go and say goodbye.
my grandmother was on life support. the doctors said she was brain dead so we all had to make a choice and so we had to turn off her life support. We all got to say our goodbyes before she passed away which I am very grateful for.
my grandmother was very mentally abusive aswell. ( which is really hard for me to come to terms with and honestly it sometimes consumes me)
seems to be a thing with old people I guess? she was just hurting and took it out on us. which I understand but I really wish she didn't do that.
she also made my mother sell her house to move in with her to look after her promising my mother she would get her home.
well, that was not the case and my grandmother did everything in her power to make me and mother have nothing. and sadly it kind of worked. mum didn't have a car or a house but thankfully things are looking up now! mum has a car now and we are hoping when we sell this house we can maybe buy a new one, once the money is split between mum and her siblings.so things have been really really horrible lately and we gotta declutter her house and pray we can get enough money to buy one otherwise we may have to put our animal down and really I don't want that.now onto so Ummm news for 2020
2020 is going to be very very busy for me art-wise I wanna try and get better with art and maybe finally get my store up and running once I and mum settle into our new home maybe? that's the dream anyway!!
I also plan to check into some mental health to uhh get myself better since yeah I need to. I'm a very very angry and hurt person and I have umm become bitter in my old age haha XP I guess 18 years of abuse does that to a person. so it's going to be slow and scary but change is happening so I hope my mother and I can handle it!so I offer some advice for everyone suffering from abusive family members and so on. it's not your fault. it never is your fault. and if you can please get away and don't feel selfish like I did. don't let them abuse your kindness, Out yourself first.
I'm glad things are looking up for you recently, though! I hope you and your mother can continue to heal from this situation!! (o´~｀o) And good luck with your store-- whenever you set it up!! <3
things can only look up from here ^u^
And exactly! That's a good way to look at it!! ヽ(゜∇゜)ノ
baby steps are still steps! and im proud you have made it this far!