To those that read this (which probably won't be many, I'm mainly doing this to express and vent) I'm currently dealing with a lot of mental trouble. This ranges from stuff like paranoia, anxiety and disassociation.

More detail below.

I fear that people are always talking behind my back or don't truly care about me, this with my consistency to avoid social contact with friends from anxiety that I experience play hand in hand with eachother making feel like the bad guy no matter the context. Eventually all this accumulates together to where I can't comprehend reality from fiction and I feel like I am dreaming or floating, I've also noticed severe personality changes from where I have been unable to empathize or show emotion. There are times I can recall waking up and feeling like an entirely different person from interaction with friends and family feeling so alien (foreign).

A lot of this is left in the realm of uncertainty which is only making things worse, I will hopefully be going to find some resolution to this identity problem before I lose all sense of reality.

Writer's commentary here.

[I feel like I have a lot more to say but can't figure out how to word it out into a cohesive, comprehensive paragraph. My mind feels cloudy and my memory is hazy but my heart is saying there is more to this.]