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Fresh Air
5 years ago
As of late I've been going through a bit of a furry reawakening, and it's made me think a lot, not just about furries, but about life as a whole, and the lessons learned from it. We learn things, not just math, science, history and such, but life lessons, and those things become the basic building blocks of who we are as people. We use these life lessons, these experiences, as the foundation for our character, giving ourselves little quirks, and setting how we view and fit in with the world around us.
But what if we're wrong?
It's something I can't stop thinking about, the simple idea that the base experiences that make us who we are, may be wrong, and more so, how to deal with it.
For example, I don't RP, or draw for friends, or really even be genuinely friendly and open with new people that just want to talk- this is all due to experiences that I'd had when I was younger. The part that I find interesting is that, to this day, well over a decade later, I still live by those rules, based on those experiences. Time has passed, the fandom has changed, I've grown a lot older, yet I, as an adult approaching his mid 30s, still live part of my life based on experiences I had in my teenage years. It sounds a bit silly, doesn't it?
This got me thinking about why the world seems to be a more magical and special place when we're younger. When you're young, you don't have these little experiences to draw from, everything is new and exciting. As you get older, the blanks get filled in, and you start searching for new things to experience, to try and rekindle that magical feeling of a world of infinite possibility. To tie this back to my original idea, what if, in actuality, those blanks that you thought you filled in, actually weren't? Like a little bubble on a test sheet filled in with pencil, there are gaps, and more importantly, maybe you filled in the wrong bubble entirely.
It's a thought that I've been tossing about for a little while now. On one hand, it would be easier to just assume I know who I am and what I'm about and keep on living as I do. On the other hand, however, there's a growing feeling inside me that I should go back and redo things. Instead of locking out and denying certain aspects of life based on flawed experiences of my youth, maybe I should be more open to it all, rewriting myself as time goes by.
Yeah. I think I want to experience that world of infinite possibility again.
Sorry if this is all a bit incoherent -.-;;
My mind is a little frazzled at the moment and it's been a hot minute since I'd really written anything, so I'm just sort of typing thoughts as they come up.
But what if we're wrong?
It's something I can't stop thinking about, the simple idea that the base experiences that make us who we are, may be wrong, and more so, how to deal with it.
For example, I don't RP, or draw for friends, or really even be genuinely friendly and open with new people that just want to talk- this is all due to experiences that I'd had when I was younger. The part that I find interesting is that, to this day, well over a decade later, I still live by those rules, based on those experiences. Time has passed, the fandom has changed, I've grown a lot older, yet I, as an adult approaching his mid 30s, still live part of my life based on experiences I had in my teenage years. It sounds a bit silly, doesn't it?
This got me thinking about why the world seems to be a more magical and special place when we're younger. When you're young, you don't have these little experiences to draw from, everything is new and exciting. As you get older, the blanks get filled in, and you start searching for new things to experience, to try and rekindle that magical feeling of a world of infinite possibility. To tie this back to my original idea, what if, in actuality, those blanks that you thought you filled in, actually weren't? Like a little bubble on a test sheet filled in with pencil, there are gaps, and more importantly, maybe you filled in the wrong bubble entirely.
It's a thought that I've been tossing about for a little while now. On one hand, it would be easier to just assume I know who I am and what I'm about and keep on living as I do. On the other hand, however, there's a growing feeling inside me that I should go back and redo things. Instead of locking out and denying certain aspects of life based on flawed experiences of my youth, maybe I should be more open to it all, rewriting myself as time goes by.
Yeah. I think I want to experience that world of infinite possibility again.
Sorry if this is all a bit incoherent -.-;;
My mind is a little frazzled at the moment and it's been a hot minute since I'd really written anything, so I'm just sort of typing thoughts as they come up.
However, unlike an animal, you have the option to ignore past happenings and try things again.
If you feel like something is holding you back, it might be time to move over it and get your feet wet.
Side note: I suck at expressing what I think and putting it into words so I'm hopefully someone will at least get this even a little bit.
IMHO, it's never to late to try something new
What I'd say is that in life we're always changing, always growing, we're never the same person from one year to the next, so for some things to change as you grow and learn is very natural. You can redo/relearn things to understand them better and maybe change your view.
We all change and it's a part of moving forward, never forget who you were of course. But it's all about moving forward, we all have a short existence on this little planet. Experience life, enjoy it. That's what I believe.
Our experiences do change us. However the fun thing about change is that it isn't finite, you can change again whenever you feel like it. So try something new.
However you choose to handle this, I wish you the very best of luck ^-^
It's never too late to change things you thought couldn't be changed.
I don't think it comes down to "you failed to learn the right lesson". That being said, It's not a bad idea to look back over those experiences from your formative years and try to see them from different perspectives. Re-evaluate. Old habits die hard and its difficult to change the way you handle things but its not impossible. I've learned that the point is to be the best version of ourselves, not try to be perfect.
I've been doing that a lot myself lately. For me it started with taking too many cannabis edibles and realizing that I was fucking miserable and insecure despite outwardly looking like i was on the "right track". From there it's been a journey of self-awareness and looking back at why i am the way that I am. Now I am becoming more aware of my quirks and how to compensate for the ones that hold me back. Am I happy yet? No. But its a marathon, not a race.
once you have a standard formed in your head,with old looney tunes and other old stuff as the standard
it is hard to watch modern day cartoons without your brain screaming how subpar is it.