Slow updating on The Wilderness
5 years ago
Still working on it, was having trouble coming up with how to make what is essentially a long conversation visually interesting. Also I updated the character rigs, they had issues and I had to bin stuff that took several days to render.
Plus, I got Corona'd, got over it, got ill again, have been completely isolated for over a month now, and my mental health has been suffering. I've had no drive to do anything, then my work furloughed me, so technically I'm now jobless for the time being. Any impetus to do much has been lost. I am starting to work on the animation again though. I've split it into 4 parts, where I do the basic animation, then come along and refine it over multiple stages. I made the first 2 parts before I found the rig issues, binned part 1 and managed to fix what was wrong with part 2. Part 2 is now rendered and part 1 is 2/3rd rendered now. Just got the last two parts to get cleaned and finished. I'm hoping they're going to be as easy as part 2 was.
Another part of it is I know there's a decent amount of responses each time I post an episode, and I know you shouldn't care about how far it reaches as long as you're doing it because you want to, but sometimes it feels like a lot of time and effort goes into things that hardly anyone sees. But then that's a me problem. No matter what I do with my life, it feels like nothing ever really matters. A lot of it feels like shouting into a void. Doesn't make a difference how loud you shout, there's not going to be a response.
So there's the update. It's coming, trying to get out of yet another depression, the world is chaos and nothing matters any more.
Plus, I got Corona'd, got over it, got ill again, have been completely isolated for over a month now, and my mental health has been suffering. I've had no drive to do anything, then my work furloughed me, so technically I'm now jobless for the time being. Any impetus to do much has been lost. I am starting to work on the animation again though. I've split it into 4 parts, where I do the basic animation, then come along and refine it over multiple stages. I made the first 2 parts before I found the rig issues, binned part 1 and managed to fix what was wrong with part 2. Part 2 is now rendered and part 1 is 2/3rd rendered now. Just got the last two parts to get cleaned and finished. I'm hoping they're going to be as easy as part 2 was.
Another part of it is I know there's a decent amount of responses each time I post an episode, and I know you shouldn't care about how far it reaches as long as you're doing it because you want to, but sometimes it feels like a lot of time and effort goes into things that hardly anyone sees. But then that's a me problem. No matter what I do with my life, it feels like nothing ever really matters. A lot of it feels like shouting into a void. Doesn't make a difference how loud you shout, there's not going to be a response.
So there's the update. It's coming, trying to get out of yet another depression, the world is chaos and nothing matters any more.
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Just my thoughts on it all is that it seems like a lot of people won't really be taking the time to take in the amount of work you have to do for your animations and what you had to do just to get it work or look the way it did. Not to mention it seems like some people that might suggest some of the suggestions for the adventure are one time goers, people that don't really stick with the story after their suggestion is filled. I also feel like a lot of the people who suggest sexual stuff and then don't get it just leave because they feel like they aren't heard.
I don't think having to go and fulfill their request is a good choice either unless it's something needed in the story at the time.
It's a tough juggle I guess. But I think that's where some of the lack of impact you might be feeling is from.
In any case, I seriously hope you are able to get through your depression and get it under control or at least able to deal with it enough to where it doesn't affect you as much. Maybe you might have to take some time to put it into a project that isn't as time consuming or as tough to fix and make.
Feel free to shoot me a note or message if you ever want to chat or talk about Blender stuff! lol. Hope you feel better soon Methodia.