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A quick question for y'all
5 years ago
We've finally started medically treating the adhd, Strattera. Nothing huge, but it's helped me how crippling my mental what-its have been. I've been able to work on art daily. I'm not doing full blown illustrations with consistency yet, but I do believe I can post consistently.
My question, would you guys prefer these "scribbles" posted in dumps or sketch pages or individually?
I think sketch dumps/pages would be easier to stay on top of, plan a day to scan and just orgnaize it. As more complete pieces, or pieces I'm looking for critique or feedback on will be posted individually though.
Rambling about Menta Health
Honestly, my psychiatrist isn't sure if the adhd diagnosis I got as a kid was a misdiagnosis or not. Apparently severe adhd and severe anxiety can look very similar. That's a big part of why we went the non-stimulant route. It'd either help or wouldn't. Stimulants have too much risk of undoing the work we've done with the anxiety.
One day, I sat down and I just...drew. It was amazing! My biggest issues (with just about everything) is:
1- I have to do things in spurts, my focus was in spans of about 10 minutes then my brain would scream for something else. Not boredom, but I "Okay we did this, now let's go do that." I would try and force it but it'd just end with me fidgeting and angry because for reason I didn't understand I just physically couldn't. I needed to do something else.
If I can't finish in that span, it isn't happening, or wouldn't, I suppose.
2- Everything has/had a thought, and it was exhausting. I wouldn't think "I want to draw a cat" and draw a cat. I'd think "I want to draw a cat" and every part of the process would play out in my mind and it was just so exhausting, guys. This was with anything, from showering to chores. Everything felt like so much. It still happens but man, I don't know if it's a specific med or the the combination but it's shut those thoughts down. Things come at a slower, reasonable rate. It's easier to organize my thoughts and routine structures, I can function.
I describe my thought process to my docs/mental health workers and such as a scene from those old rubber hose cartoons. Where the mother will call out to her children, and, suddenly, the screen is full of nothing but moving children and it's damn near impossible to focus on just one(or even focus on the scene at times),or if you do manage to keep tabs on one another catches your eye and dang, you lost track of the first kid, just gone. Sometimes it's connected, sometimes it's not.
It's hell and I am so, so grateful that things have slowed. I hope to keep improving, I have several more goals to hit yet! I'm happy to be able to focus and indulge in hobbies again
Mental Health done
My question, would you guys prefer these "scribbles" posted in dumps or sketch pages or individually?
I think sketch dumps/pages would be easier to stay on top of, plan a day to scan and just orgnaize it. As more complete pieces, or pieces I'm looking for critique or feedback on will be posted individually though.
Rambling about Menta Health
Honestly, my psychiatrist isn't sure if the adhd diagnosis I got as a kid was a misdiagnosis or not. Apparently severe adhd and severe anxiety can look very similar. That's a big part of why we went the non-stimulant route. It'd either help or wouldn't. Stimulants have too much risk of undoing the work we've done with the anxiety.
One day, I sat down and I just...drew. It was amazing! My biggest issues (with just about everything) is:
1- I have to do things in spurts, my focus was in spans of about 10 minutes then my brain would scream for something else. Not boredom, but I "Okay we did this, now let's go do that." I would try and force it but it'd just end with me fidgeting and angry because for reason I didn't understand I just physically couldn't. I needed to do something else.
If I can't finish in that span, it isn't happening, or wouldn't, I suppose.
2- Everything has/had a thought, and it was exhausting. I wouldn't think "I want to draw a cat" and draw a cat. I'd think "I want to draw a cat" and every part of the process would play out in my mind and it was just so exhausting, guys. This was with anything, from showering to chores. Everything felt like so much. It still happens but man, I don't know if it's a specific med or the the combination but it's shut those thoughts down. Things come at a slower, reasonable rate. It's easier to organize my thoughts and routine structures, I can function.
I describe my thought process to my docs/mental health workers and such as a scene from those old rubber hose cartoons. Where the mother will call out to her children, and, suddenly, the screen is full of nothing but moving children and it's damn near impossible to focus on just one(or even focus on the scene at times),or if you do manage to keep tabs on one another catches your eye and dang, you lost track of the first kid, just gone. Sometimes it's connected, sometimes it's not.
It's hell and I am so, so grateful that things have slowed. I hope to keep improving, I have several more goals to hit yet! I'm happy to be able to focus and indulge in hobbies again
Mental Health done
