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god damn
16 years ago
so i lost my grandma on my dad's side.
spent the last three days in Pennsylvania at her funeral and such, meeting my family on my dad's side for the first time ever, etc.
they all hate gay people.
my dad wants MORE FUCKING KIDS especially A SON even though he doesn't even talk to the son he has (my brother).
my ex hasn't spoken to me in 8 months and something about her birthday coming and going just fucking tore me up, i have been feeling like shit about it.
i think the family i live with hates me because i'm so different.
and to top it off i got a text that was SUPER awkward and now i just feel SHITTIER.
also i think someone's ignoring me that i thought cared about me. :/
maybe for once i could be good enough for someone to WANT me in their fucking life. the only people who give a shit about me are across the country.
i want to hurt something. maybe me.
spent the last three days in Pennsylvania at her funeral and such, meeting my family on my dad's side for the first time ever, etc.
they all hate gay people.
my dad wants MORE FUCKING KIDS especially A SON even though he doesn't even talk to the son he has (my brother).
my ex hasn't spoken to me in 8 months and something about her birthday coming and going just fucking tore me up, i have been feeling like shit about it.
i think the family i live with hates me because i'm so different.
and to top it off i got a text that was SUPER awkward and now i just feel SHITTIER.
also i think someone's ignoring me that i thought cared about me. :/
maybe for once i could be good enough for someone to WANT me in their fucking life. the only people who give a shit about me are across the country.
i want to hurt something. maybe me.
I just... feel frustrated at myself more than anyone else.
I just... feel frustrated at myself more than anyone else.
As with your family hating you because your different, I know how that feels personally. So I know it's got to be really rough on you to feel like everyone is turning on you. but you still have friends and there are plenty of people you can talk with that come when they feel you need it.
I just hope you keep your chin up and let things take their course, things will get better but as a part of life, things get bad before they get better. Here's best wishes for you
And I really hope the ignoring thing is just a misunderstanding.