I'm not sure if anyone will read this, but I wanted to say to anyone who I ever wronged with my own insecurities, selfishness, or self centeredness, I'm sorry. I truly am sorry. I'm sorry for the way I treated you and how it may have negatively impacted you. I don't always feel like a good person, but I want to try to be, even if the road to get there can be painful. I've burned so many bridges before that I don't know if many of them can be repaired. I have so many regrets, but I want to keep trying. I want to be the best version of me, even if I may have flaws to overcome. I want to see what others have seen in me for myself, the parts that keep them there for me to cherish as my friends. I want to start moving on and forgiving myself, even if some may not or cannot. If you read all the way through, thanks I guess, and just needed to vent out in written form someway to express what's been on my mind lately. I know I'm an asshole sometimes, but I want to do better by others, the ones that really matter, and most of all for myself.