I want to thank everyone who commented on my last journal as morose as it was. I just wanted to inform everyone, that thanks to the encouraging words from Dearshul77, MajorMajorM4jor, and Omnikitsune, as well as a long discussion with my wife, I am going to work harder to get the help that I need. I have started the long process of getting a more comprehensive kind of therapy which will hopefully lead me to living a more functional and fulfilling life. I appreciate you all, and thank you for taking the time to speak to me about what I was going through.